There was a time in my life That I had you You weren't with me And I lay in bed My hair wet from tears on both sides
Depression plagued me And held a weight on my chest That cemented me to my mattress
I didn't know I was sick I thought you were to blame And that wasn't fair
But despite that Despite the fact I thought you were the reason for my sadness I still told myself that I would never leave you I told myself that I loved you too much to ever hurt you or make you sad I promised myself that I was going to stay with you until you died And it was worth me having a miserable life So you could be happy I was going so crazy I thought about killing myself But I knew that it would **** you
I WAS GOING SO BAT **** CRAZY I MOMENTARILY CONTEMPLATED WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE IF I KILLED YOU AND KILLED MYSELF SO WE COULD BE RID OF THIS PAIN AND IF THERE WAS A GOD YOU WOULD STILL GO TO HEAVEN
So don't EVEN FOR A ******* SECOND TELL ME THAT I DIDNT REALLY LOVE YOU BECAUSE I WAS WILLING TO GIVE UP EVERYTHING GIVE IT ALL UP GIVE UP MY HAPPINESS MY SANITY MY LIFE AND ITS WORTH FOR YOU AND YOUR HAPPINESS THATS WHY I KNOW IT WAS LOVE IT IS LOVE Because all the other boys I "had" All the other boys I "loved" I let go For me And I still haven't let you go For me But I try to leave you alone For you
I've been seeing you in my dreams lately Last night I was covered in burns and you still brought me home And we made love
I knew it was a dream But at a very strange point I said **** it And gave you the most loving hug Like I used to With my arms cradling your head And my legs wrapped around your ribs
It felt real I could feel the warmth of your skin I could SMELL you for christ's sake Does that mean you were there?? Is love actually this spiritual?? Do you dream of me too?? Or do I remember your scent and feel so well, that I tap into the deep deep parts of my subconscious and I can relive Such vivid memories That its like you're actually there
I love you I love you every day I will love you tomorrow And I will love you until my last breath
I will be who I want to be one day And that day I will come for you And tell you I'm ready **** dude I really hope you'll take me then I wish even more I was ready now..
I AM SO ANGRY WITH YOU WHO ARE YOU TURNING INTO HOW CAN YOU BE SO SINISTER