Why am I smiling? I cut myself on my thigh I saw the blood rush out and I knew I’d done a terrible thing So why did I smile?
I dropped to my knees and forced ******* down my throat I saw this morning’s breakfast come up and land in the toilet bowl I knew I was damaging my body for good So why did I smile?
I didn’t eat for two days time My body ached and my mind ran amok I knew there would only be more pain So why did I smile?
I damaged myself I hurt myself in ways beyond repair I felt the pain I thought I deserved Why does this make me smile?