I’m so lost in my mind from the loneliness night of a moment in time like a mystery from the lock less monster that never been discovered, I got to reach the light but the darkness behind keep pulling me down leading me to nowhere. Feel the core underneath the earth burning my skin of my horrible sins to the negativity so blind from the mist of their stupidity. So far gone trapped in this world locked in so tight waiting to be wind from this filthy box. Could hardly breathe, could hardly speak surrounded by dark voices stuck in my head whispering secret syllables, secret codes, of a secret language something I’m not quite understand of their garbage breath. Wishing for something so call hope don’t know if that word even exist anymore, have to unlock this pain of my own escape causing my depression to the road back to the direction of my addiction. Having a past vision a memory in my head of lust of women’s with green money falling in my hands all the drugs I smoke all the white powder of ******* I’ve sniffed to give me a boost of *** drive when I needed, there so many feminine hearts surrounding me at my feet that I have broken because of my adultery. Have tears of hate that I always regret no will, no purpose in life for the selfish man that I have become. If I can take it all back in what I’ve done I totally would in a heartbeat, just feeling so cold like a dead body that start to decay and the only light I see that speck in my eyes is the moon that glows like rose that stand alone rotting old in black like it had too much sun. Just like my soul that falling apart feeling the numbness of heroine  that flows in my blood helpless, meaningless stab a thousand time by my angry veins and starting all over where I was left off and that when I realize the ache I can’t escape.

**By Jacob Cuadro