They say the eyes are windows to our souls
But that can't be true
I have always begged for you to look at me
and see how empty this hollow body is
I refused to blink on days we needed to talk
Terrified that I might miss out on the important little things
But you always had a way to hide
You always needed to hide
You never felt safe around me
My eyes are as black as the skies on days we sleep feeling unwanted
And waking up without anything to prove that wrong
Empty-handed I leave my clothes on the floor
Pick myself up and just breathe in the last hint of you in the air
It punches my gut, right to the bone
We were crashing, spiralling down to the end
You have planted bombs on my eyelids
Waiting for the 3, 2, 1 and the explosion
But you never bothered to understand the ticking
I have this enormous world inside me you refuse to even glance at
My eyes hold the stars in the sky like they are the only thing I can love
But you always found a way out
You touched my hand without looking at me
I was sure then you were only there for the chase
You liked chasing but whenever I stopped you kept on running
I could plant bruises on your arms with my eyes wide open
But you had your way of making me close my eyes in disdain
I have the whole world inside me
You clawed your way in, trying to let it all out for the world to see
But you left it naked and lost, a million pieces on my hand
My eyes are yours to have and to hold
But still, I can never understand for the life of me
How you can look at me without our history haunting you
It never leaves me alone
I let you see the ocean of promises in my eyes
You were there to hold the anchor to help you sink
But you always refused the drowning
You hesitated every time I asked you to swim
But the shore scared you as much as the waves made you stutter