Remember how we use to be
Always laughing
We could never get enough
We stood in line that one day
Because you promised me ice cream
And I just had to have that waffle cone
Sorry I was a mess I guess it became too much
Because that first year was a start
To what I don't know
But a start that never seemed to finish
Because it was interrupted
Maybe it was me
Actually it probably was
Did I change or you, it's know use questioning
Because that winter, perhaps it was the cold, but you went with the season
Those laughs turned into fights and your eyes became a new shade of color
One that I had never seen
There wasn't anymore ice cream and you didn't care
But I watched as this mess grew to something that consumed me
What we became was someone I didn't recognize
Someone I couldn't be
So this is my apology
For leaving, for choosing myself
Maybe it didn't affect you and maybe you didn't notice.
But saving myself was the best **** thing I did
God and am I glad
But on nights like this when I feel lonely
I think of what could have been
If that snow didn't sweep you away
the memories of us laughing that first year. And I thank you for not chasing after me.