I USED TO HAVE YOU SOMETIMES AND NOW I HAVE YOU NONETIMES—
IT'S ALL GOING WRONG AND NOTHING IS GOING RIGHT AND IT WASN'T ENOUGH IN THE FIRST PLACE SO HOW COULD IT BE OKAY NOW?
YOU AVOID ME LIKE THE UNDERSIDE OF A DESK, AFRAID TO GET GUM ON YOUR HAND
I'M GONNA START AVOIDING ALL MY RESPONSIBILITIES AGAIN
BUT YOU STILL DESERVE ALL THE SLEEP THAT I'VE LOST
WITHOUT ALL THE SMUDGES ON MY PILLOWCASE FROM MAKEUP I WAS TOO SAD-LAZY TO TAKE OFF (SO I CRIED IT OFF)
Does it bother you, that I spend time with your upgrade?
Perhaps you shouldn't have traded me in for my best friend as a newer model
I remember the October brick wall against my back when you called and started all of this
But now I'm wishing I'd tied those bricks round my waist and jumped into the river before I got this deep
It's okay, it's okay, I'll never tell you about the times I beg my hands to make up for the you-shaped hole in my heart— WHY DID I EXPECT ANY DIFFERENTLY?
YOU WARNED ME FROM THE START
YOU WARNED ME FROM THE START