I don't like the things I do out of spite. I don't like how I'm always replaced. I don't like how I've been lost in depression for so long that this is all I know. I don't like the fact the one time I fall-I fall for you. Someone who was a one night stand. Someone who shouldn't matter. I don't like how you have control over me. I don't like how I would do anything to have your attention. I don't like how I'm literally so lost, I think you're the most perfect thing. Not perfect as in flawless but as in you're right for me. You've done so many ****** up things to people and so have I. That's why I want you. I want you to **** me up. I want you to hurt me. I just don't like how I'm not the one you want.