I've never been "That girl" That girl who comes out of a realationship. And instantly finds herself in another.. Effortlessly. Like it was destiny.
I guess it was just mever destined for me to be "that girl" That girl, who never stops having people confess their love for her That girl who people can't stop talking about, how pretty they are. That girl who can get guys to buy her a drink at the bar. By the pattern of her soft lips and a hair flip. Effortlessly. Like it was destiny.
I guess, it was just never destined for me, to be "that girl" That girl who knows how to flirt properly. That girl who can put her makeup on flawlessly That girl who can post a photo to facebook and not find a million insecurities, lurking at the tips of her fingers, as she presses the share button.
And i know that i shouldn't let these things define my femininity. I know, that i shouldn't let these things bother me, but.. They do. It's like having a lack of popularity in this world, is seen as an abnormality. It is seen as less than womanly. And i'm always forced to ask myself 'what's wrong, with me?'
But maybe it's because i was never destined to be "that girl" Maybe it's because i was destined to be something more! To be that girl who just lives her life. That girl who loves herself for who she is, and doesn't rely on popularity to make herself feel alright.
That girl who knows what she wants, and fights until it's her's. That girl, who still has insecurities, but.. At the end of the day just says 'whatever? Because we all know who runs the world' I wanna be that girl.