There's a misconception about the Christian life. That once you come to the Lord, everything will be right. And this is true in His light, but that doesn't mean it will be easy or without strife. God loves to squeeze me, just like a sponge and in this squeezing he shows me what I'm made of. And if my eyes are open, this can release me from all that I have done, that didn't appease Him, the Lord up above.