I'm ****** up today The feeling of you is clanging around in my chest It's not just lingering anymore It feels too heavy I'm swimming in an ocean of lost chances And loving you is a lead weight That's sinking me to the bottom I smoked all evening The smell of cigarettes and despair follows me through the hallways It isn't deterred by closed doors or sweet-smelling perfume I'm ****** up today And you aren't here to see it
*The Suicide Diaries
You've been gone for awhile, but you're killing me today.