I dread this day every year, and as I search the card isle I fail to find a card that fits our story.
You see our story isn't one that I am proud of, as this day is a reminder of what I don't have. I see the way that you look at me from across the table, the way you crinkle your brow. I know I am not who you want me to be. My life reflects the grace of God that I want you to see, feel, know, and cherish.
I'm different. My heart is soft and tears freely flow, sometimes frustrating me, too. Apologise, I won't. The **** is broke, and all I am left with are memories that haunt my soul.
Today I receive the pain, the sadness that you bring to me. I soak it in and choose to feel it, to breathe it in, and acknowledge it. Today I will cry, but I will also hold on to the fact that I'm adopted, by a God who satisfies my heart.
Though my father and mother forsake me, the LORD will receive me. -Psalm 27:10