I swore that I was never going to do this again. I was never going to have another sleepless night Staying up convincing someone to live When I could have been sleeping, Or reading, Or dreaming. When I could have been doing anything but that. I swore I was never going to play The Sleeping Or Dead game With another person I care about. No more driving around at one in the morning Tapping on windows to make sure Someone was still breathing. I swore I was never going to do any of it again, But here I am. I tell myself to stay away. Not to get involved if I see it. I swore that I would never care again. That I would never try again. Never would I feel the pain of loss again Yet Here I Am Living in this moment, While you're slowly dying