Night is hard
When the darkness settles in
And there's no light to distract me
From all of my sin
The quiet nights aren't too serene
When it's just me and my doubts
My self hatred, my uneven breath
A little voice tells me I'll never get out
My happiness leaves with the sun
And I spiral further into the abyss
I reach for the warm white light
But I'm met by night's cold kiss
My eyes snap shut
The inky black fills my veins
My body lies limp
And I'm filled with the pain
The weight of the world on my shoulders
Atlas was mighty, yet I'm too weak
The darkness and pain causes me to crumble
I'm too broken to speak
The night brings on
My most terrifying desires
I'm balancing on a tightrope
Made of the thinnest wires
If I slip and plummet
I'll be gone for good
Yet I hear whispers that say
"Maybe you should"
But I try my best
To balance til dawn
So I can feel the warmth
And my pain will be gone