tell me how it felt to watch her put her lips on another. tell me how it felt to fall on your knees, and pray to God half sober with the kitchen light on. tell me how it felt to wake up the next afternoon with beer stains on your collar and ash in your teeth. tell me how it felt to stack those bricks around your bones and fight anyone who got too close. tell me how it felt when you met me; face softened, jaw unclenched, pulse steady. tell me how it felt when you let me in, how the fires felt burning away every piece of armor shielding your weaknesses and you were without water to put it out. tell me how it felt to let me go; did it leave you scorched in the flesh and heavy in the head?