I just need to get this out. There won't be any rhymes, well maybe that part you can doubt... My heart hurts today, I can't even live. It feels painful to just be, I have nothing left to give. My dog didn't leave my side last night, or this morning. I think she could tell that my heart was in mourning. I want you to be happy so much it just makes me sad. It reminds me a lot of the way I used to crave attention from my dad. I know the Lord sustains me, and is always more than enough. But when the going gets going and turns out to be tough, I feel so alone, and I know he is calling my bluff. I see that I am weak with no faith, I guess that sums it up.