I'm cautious to a fault I've never stared down The barrel of a gun I've never held A blade to my wrists But I've thought about it.
I was never a girl of extremes I've never drunk Poison until I passed out I've never let my lips Inhale ash But I contemplated it.
I was never careless After a few painful infatuations And unrequited feelings I fell in love And this time, he loves me too But somehow my heart is still fractured.
I cannot help but wonder How someone so sensible So careful Can still be so messed up When they have done nothing but Tread without fault.
The thoughts and feelings That I do my best to ignore Stifle me, suffocate me Even overwhelm me, sometimes I'm cautious to a fault And it terrifies me.