You still plague my mind
while I am sitting here blind,
hoping one day you'll come back kind.

From the moment we fumbled underneath the sheet,
to the moment you said goodbye on that street,
and even the moment I found out you were a lying cheat.

I still think of you often,
sometimes I've wondered if you've softened,
and other times I wonder if I was better off with Austin.

There's a moment I keep shelved,
however, there are sometimes I delve
to that horrid moment on May 10th, 2012.

Yes, consensual at first,
but then you started to thirst
and the pain was at it's worst.

I begged and pleaded,
but you proceeded,
and my body was stampeded.

After this disaster,
I became a master
at wearing a smile like plaster.

Seeing you is like sinking the Titanic,
a reaction that's almost volcanic,
sends me into a panic.

Its not like you'll ever know.
I will no longer stand here as your ***,
I will stand here without you and grow.  

I will stand here with a big smile on my face
and wait for a long embrace,
from someone that will treat me with grace.