My momma always warned me She’d say “Baby doll liquor runs through our veins” I was making a family tree for health class last week and a third of the people hanging from the branches had beer bottles clinking next to them. My grandfather’s favorite hobby was downing a bottle of jack and carrying out the cliché tradition of beating his wife and kids Just like his father did. My dad learned from this vowing never to forget what alcohol did too his family My uncle he drinks just trying to forget. My mother has a similar background She remembers riding into town with my grandma to buy her granddaddy’s medicine It was only until she was older she realized the pharmacy was an ABC The “medicine” cheap whiskey As the elixir slid down my great grandfathers throat it trickled into the workings of our tree Infecting its core Yeah my parents would always warn me Against the dangers of alcohol Don’t drink the punch at parties Don’t be like your uncles Don’t end up like your aunts But what they failed to tell me was depression runs through our veins too They taught me how to ward off being a drunkard But never told me to stay away from the dark spaces in my mind They never taught me what to do about the numbness And in my house people are more ashamed Of going to therapy than alcoholics anonymous. How do you protect yourself from something already inside you? You see those relatives of mine They were doctors Preforming at home blood transfusions Replacing the bad blood with good beer The dark thoughts with white wine Until the depression swimming through them was too drunk to see straight We nurture our family tree with PBR and Prozac Helping the roots twist and grow so they can grasp for the younger generation dangling from the lower limbs and I mean Hey we all need something to make the feelings go away And they say alcohol’s not the answer But it sure as hell makes you forget the question We all need something to forget the questions And Like my kin I picked my poison Because I felt it The liquor in my veins I felt it getting warmer Hotter Hot This liquid in my veins it gets too hot. I’m slitting my wrist to poor myself another shot It’s not what it looks like momma I just wanna feel that buzz and my blood is all I got I picked my poison I’m like my uncles A crude copy of my aunts I’m an addict Just not an alcoholic