When I was a child tucked in blankets and snuggled in tight my mother turned on the fan and my head would race inside.
That drumming twirl it drove me mad to the edge of quickness to the point where everything was spinning like the propeller of that fan.
As if a plane was flying over my head I shut my eyes yet the tapping of any movement was a flash top speed horses in my mind.
Hooves darting for the line I tossed and screamed for my mother forcing her to turn it off, turn off that horrible fan.
I'm used to that device now I even used to sing into it like a microphone and that fast pace of the world around me slipped away and I was normal again.
But then mathematics drove it back inside my head and the numbers and equations I couldn't comprehend messed with my head.
1, 2, 3 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12.
The clicking of the calculator made the teacher's voice loud and like a blur and everything drove me crazy my brain not understanding of 1, 2, or 3.
Linear equations I couldn't read and everything was dizzy as if in running like silver spinning like that fan at top speed.
I almost cried when that speed happened again when they placed that exam at my hands and my brain reacted like it did with that fan.