when the weather settles in my bones,
the way it so often does this time of year,
it leaves me feeling anything but strong

and I don’t need your protection
but I liked the way it held me, anyway

I’ve been singing along to sad songs for at least an hour now
like that will fix me                           like they will change something    
like this all hasn’t happened before

I had forgotten what giving up felt like
until I spent yesterday
trying to unlearn my own name

holding myself together
has become a full time job
that I can’t apologize enough for