Every day of my life
I'm caught in this depressing,
Overly dramatic trap
My brain.

My thoughts are lame
They lack typical emotion,
Like happiness, joy
It's inhumane.

I think nothing but pain
No kindness or understand
No relief ever comes
Just rage.

I'm constantly angry
Living in a demented,
Upset, depressed mind
I'm caged.

I imagine mass ******
A sweet, comforting genocide
Gosh, I know it's crazy
I'm insane..

I beat on the walls of my cell
Scratch at the floor continuously
Until my skin peels off
And my nails bleed

I throw myself at these bars
Try to bend them, break them
Bang my head on the sink
Losing my mind, you see..

I see skies of red
By skin is turning blue
My heart is racing
My thoughts are a darker hue

I scream, cry, shout
Sob and weep
Pitying myself
I'm so weak..

My flesh is crawling
Maybe if I tear it off..
Will I escape my eternal damnation?
I want to leave this internal prison..

Why am  I this way..
I hate the things I say
No wonder nobody loves me..
God..why doesn't someone ****** me?!

I don't deserve the bitter air I breathe
My life isn't worth this bleeding
But maybe I'm unworthy of healing..
It wouldn't surprise me