I have a vicious cycle.
It starts with being happy
proud
successful.
Then something changes,
and i'm sad and scared,
then I am too jaded to write about beautiful things.
But I always come around,
and I write about hope.
That no matter what happens,
I will always have hope,
and that drives me forward
and I break the surface of the deep water
finally getting a breath of fresh air,
and i'm happy,
proud,
and successful once more.

It's an infinite loop
a routine that I can't break.

But what do I avoid writing about?
What would break this loop, this routine?

*To be continued...