The one person I wanted to spend my New Years Eve with,
Isn't here..
And I wish I had the taste of alcohol on my lips,
Helping me forget all the ****** up things that happened to me this year.
Instead tears stream down my face,
And here I sit alone, thinking about every single ******* problem I have.
I thought today would've been better,
I thought I would've spent it with the one person I wanted to spend it with.
But no instead, I spend another year alone..
Sometimes I think I'm forever alone..
Like I'll never be good enough for anyone, ever.
God, I just hope this new year is better..
Please be better..
Please..