poetry roots me, I am not thinking ahead. I am here! That is enough when I write It's enough to be here and no where else anymore not fantasying the more i fantasize the more it eats away at the energy that I have for my heart desires poetry it desire spontaneity above all but how can anything be spontaneous if i've already thought it all so I stay I stay here in the moment of the poem forever Until I cannot possibly write anymore dreading the ending of my poem.