You're the nearest
We will ever be
To a star

For a while
I thought you're into me

And now I'm disappointed

I shouldn't have done that in the first place
Right?

Be ready for the eruption
Be ready for the wipeout

For we humans are mere mortal
Death is always but far

Be ready for the cleansing
Be ready for the disaster

And as you walk out that door
Know that the Grim is passing by


Unlucky are you who did not discern
The signs of the time ending

Hey.
I hope you, I mean I, don't have to read this.

Ever.

But here we go.

*Dear self,
Why would you want him again?

I know he is the most perfect person you have ever met
but know this,
he isn't.

He has long nose hairs that always poke out of his nose
He laughs in a weird way, like a choking person
He eats A LOT ((you wouldn't want a fat husband don't you))
His mom isn't really fond of you
His brother is a huge *******

He also doesn't stand being patient when you are angry
He told you that you annoyed him with your clinginess
He doesn't miss you like you do everyday
He never really want to go out with you and be happy with it
He doesn't have the effort to reach out to you
He doesn't care what you're feeling and why
He doesn't look at you like the best thing he has ever seen anymore

I should stop. You would cry if I write more. I know you, me.

I know you miss him like crazy
But bear with it, okay?
You will get over it.

Always stay strong for yourself, please.

I know I don’t need you
But the desire is still there
I know we had to end
But it still doesn’t feel fair

All that I thought
Was that you were the one
You gave me some purpose
Even now that we’re done

You will always be
The thing I can’t reach for
The vision of who you might be
Is something I will always adore

I had to learn it the hard way
That soulmates aren’t yours forever
But I will always have a part of you
A part that I’ll never manage to sever

I’ll learn to live with the cancer
Because Love is not a gift
May you always suffer
And may we forever drift

I am fighting with myself

whether to continue believing that you are the love of my life and somehow we will be back together
someday

or you are just another person
happens to cross the same street I did
and be together for a while

God, I miss you

and I don't know if I will keep on missing you

or I just have to wait until my heart gets tired of missing you
and then stop

i wish you were here