i always feel so alone
even with people surrounding me
it's strange I tell you
and it sends shivers down my spine
i pretend and say "im fine"

I always try and be the best I can
the happiest I can
use all the resources around
but chains of sadness keep me bound

it's strange I tell you
I can be happy for a minute
and sad the next
always feel alone and not wanted

I guess I'm a creep
I guess I'm strange
I just want to sleep
deep
down
the sea
drown
me

brushes of pink
shades of blue
some violet, purple
and a bit of yellow too

hypnotise
my colourless eyes
paint my heart
and conquer my soul

sunbather

believe me
I may smile
but I can't sleep
my eyes burning
And I don't want tomorrow to arrive
so I'm just sitting here waiting
and as time passes by
I feel my stomach getting crushed
I feel my head getting crushed
I feel static noises
static noises
Penetrating my ears
and all my fears
coming down on me
whispering

Sitting here
waiting
wishing
tomorrow never comes
tomorrow never comes

pitch black
heart attack
night covers my face in shadow
and im hallucinating
seeing my body flow
in the river of blood
river nile
it's been a while
since I dreamt
I never dream

because I'm always sitting here waiting
hoping that tomorrow never comes
but it always does
it always does

All armies are the same
Publicity is fame
Artillery makes the same old noise
Valor is an attribute of boys
Old soldiers all have tired eyes
All soldiers hear the same old lies
Dead bodies always have drawn flies

LAPIDATE YOUR INSULTS AT ME
CAN'T YOU SEE
I'M DROWNING

a death of a thousand cuts
thousands of words
ripping my flesh apart

"What is thy name?"
"My name is Legion: for we are many."

.Filling my life with emptiness
...I used to be productive
But now productivity
Is like a jar of chutney
sitting in the cupboard
for years.

All I want to do,
is just sit in my room
and observe
observe it
shrouding my room
see the dust floating in the air
Like a cold, moldy coffin
And find a hole to jump  inside
and hide
my mind
colours
colours
colours
col ours
call ours
call hours
c all hours
see all hours
see the things I could not find in a minute
See a purpose in small things takes hours
I don't need a purpose.