In times of crisis or trouble
I’m the one that keeps it together
When the world's crashing around me
I remain everybody’s tether

“Hey are you alright?”

I offer words of comfort
I tell them: ‘all will be okay’
No matter what the problem is
I have something positive to say

“You know…. its okay to be upset”

‘I’m fine’, I tell them all
When things happen in my life
Everyone around me is impressed
That I’ve overcome another strife

“Just keep hanging in there”

The truth is no one knows
That this is how I cope
I hide behind the happy mask
So I can give others hope

“You’re taking this…really well”

But somewhere along the way
I lost track of how I feel
I even tricked myself into thinking
That my happiness was real

“Are….are you sure you’re okay?”

But I can feel my façade cracking
Emotions are breaking through
I don’t have any distractions
And I don’t know what to do

“But..if you’re really okay…”

I force my smile even bigger
And laugh without knowing why
I’ll do whatever I have to do
To maintain this beautiful lie

*“…then why are you crying?”

I hope you see me in your dreams
and I hope it ******* haunts you.

Art is long and life is short
So paint your voice and draw your nerve.

If your sound cannot be heard
close your eyes and feel the words.

From within a noise will grow
Upon your skin it's waves will show.

A map of a lifetime for all to see
Just a stitch in the fabric of eternity.

There's never the time to say what's wrong
So paint it down and make it strong.

Sing it out loud if that's what feels right
Do it right now, feel the delight.

Life is short and art is long
So dance your life and live your song.

I have always been a skeptic
On things concerning love
The very idea of love at first sight
Was something I'd grown sick of

How could anyone fall in love
With someone they didn't know
Surely such a thing could not exist
In anything other than a show

But 'love' simply isn't the right word
For the feeling that takes place
It's like the world slows down around you
And your heart picks up the pace

You see, I knew that you were special
From the moment I looked into your eyes
I felt something for you in an instant
But I had yet to realize

Fascinated by your splendor
And the way you were full of light
Some part of me needed to know you
And just introduce myself outright

I grew close to you so quickly
And looking back I should have known
All I wanted was for you to be happy
Because my feelings for you had grown

So even if you're with someone else
And you travel far away
I will continue to be there for you
And by your side I will always stay

So I'm forced to hide my feelings
From absolutely everyone
Not a soul will ever know
That you're my forbidden one

They say that you've gone crazy
And that your mind is in the slum
When you repeat your actions
But you expect a new outcome

I never thought I was insane
Until the day that we first met
You fought me on every little thing
To the point where I got upset

I told you to leave me alone
But you fought me on that too
You said you were only joking around
And that you understood my view

I forgave but didn't forget
Until the next time it came up
We were at each other's throats again
And I wanted to just break up

"But love doesn't quit" you said to me
"You can't just walk away"
Suddenly I felt it was all my fault
And by your side I decided to stay

The fights grew closer and closer
And slowly got more intense
It got so bad that out in public
Strangers came to my defense

They say that you've gone crazy
And that your mind is in the slum
When you repeat your actions
But you expect a new outcome

They say that I've gone crazy
And I guess what they say is true
'Cuz no one seems to understand
Why I keep forgiving you

Once there was a little bird
With nothing left at all
All alone stuck on the ground
The bird just felt...so small

So the bird began to walk
Till the old nest was out of sight
It didn't have the strength anymore
To stand up for itself and fight

After walking for forever
It found another nest
But decided to keep walking
It didn't want to be a pest

But there was someone in the nest
That kindly invited the bird to stay
And though the bird was cynical
It thought "well maybe just today"

The day turned into a week
That week turned into two
And before the bird realized it
All its problems slowly withdrew

Its feathers gradually grew back
And its wing slowly began to heal
The more time it spent in this new nest
The more living here seamed ideal.

The bird got its confidence back
And once again it could soar
It flew around with its new friends
And sang louder than before

Once there was a little bird
As happy as could be
It soared up in the sky all day
Home at last...and free

I open my eyes from another restless sleep
I realize it's you I think of down deep.

They say what matters most is where your mind wanders.
This leaves me wondering, why on you I do ponder?

Is this love, or is this lust?
I'm not even sure if in you I can trust.

I barely know you, we've only met a few times.
But I know towards you I am inclined.

I love your smile, I love your face.
When I see you my heart starts to race.

I love your humour, you break the mould.
Oh those eyes they bore into my soul.

You're witty, clever and look great in leather!
Always a smile, whatever the weather.

This was my secret I kept hidden away
Until my thumbs they began to play.

Upon the keypad of my phone
And now my feelings you do know.

Do I regret this?
No I do not, as life is too short to keep things locked.

I'll be open and honest about how I feel.
It's all just about keeping it real.

I am me that is that.
So I am glad we had that chat.

I know how I'll react though next time we meet.
I'll look away and shuffle my feet.

I'll try to avoid any eye contact.
Because I can be coy like that.

It's all about confidence and self esteem.
It's growing more and more though it would seem.

So when I do see you, I will try.
To keep my head up, and not go all shy.

I cannot believe I told you those things.
And when I look back my mind it spins.

I'm never that forward to someone I fancy.
I always think of it too chancy.

Scared of rejection I guess you could say.
Or I find it too risque.

Well this is it, I can't take it back.
I've said what I said, I was open and frank.

What's done is done and I feel more alive.
My brains just gone into overdrive!

So I like you that's it, I've let it be heard.
I relish the fact you're a bit of a nerd.

You love science and nature, and you're creative.
Not at all unappreciative.

You dance to trance and you swing from the trees.
All of this makes me weak at the knees.

Now I must stop or I'll go on all night.
But how I feel I just had to recite.

I delight in you that's it, you're one of a kind.
I can't wait for the day our bodies entwine.

You weren't there all that much when I was growing up,
and my feelings for you I have kept shut up.

But I miss you, I miss you, I miss you like mad.
Oh I so wish I could tell you all these feelings I have.

I've had therapy and help for all the years of pain.
I just hope that one day we can gain.

Something better than what's gone before.
But I can't talk to you, as I feel I'm a bore.

Your world is so busy, and you have a new life,
new kids and a new wife.

I want to be a part of it, but try as I might.
I just don't fit in, it doesn't feel right.

It's such a shame though, and I know I'll regret.
The time that we've lost and the memories all spent.

I've moved on now and changed.
Though I still love you, it'll never be the same.

The past is the past, it's history now.
I still wish that I could change it somehow.

I'm as bad as you for not keeping in touch.
It still doesn't mean I don't love you this much.

To the moon and back and then some more.
All around the universe on a magical tour.

I get sad sometimes when of these things I think.
Maybe that's what's driven me to drink...

For now I'll continue to just write away.
It's the only way I know to get my thoughts stop to play.

I feel bad, for I know, I'm going to regret what I've lost.
What we've missed out on, what it may cost.

One day I know you'll be gone from this earth.
Ashes to ashes, dust to dirt.

Maybe tomorrow I'll pick up the phone.
Give you a ring, see how you're getting along.

I should do this, I know I must.
Our relationship has gone to rust.

Oxidized over the years.
This has always brought me to tears.

Oh well, what more can I say?
I love you, you love me, at the end of the day.

We just find it hard to express our feelings I guess.
At least to one another at best.

Here it is now, down in black and white.
Whether or not you see it, it's said and goodnight.

"Every single day's the same
And in the end I'm all alone..."
"It doesn't matter what you say...
I feel pain you've never known"

This is how you view your life
As something worth throwing away
And all I wish for is to show you
How to view it a different way

You view the world in black and white
Without any specks of grey
You chose to focus on only the bad
Which causes your own dismay

The real world is full of color
It's a giant work of art
And though it has some shadows
That is just one little part

So when all you see is darkness
And you feel life's become too glum
Just remember that it won't last
And there are brighter things to come

There is beauty all around you
And every day is a new surprise
Full of joy, and people who care
You just have to *open your eyes

I'm surrounded by a sea of people
As far as the eye can see
All flowing in the same direction
And just floating along, is me

I've been wading in this water
Letting it carry me any way
Not caring about which direction
And never having any say

After wading all this time though
My legs started growing tired
So finally it was time to choose
Which direction I desired

But the problem with floating along
Was that I never became aware
I wasn't really a part of the waves
I was just sort of...there

What I wanted didn't matter
The waves still moved as one
Whether I moved with or against them
Didn't matter in the long run

Then I thought I better get out
And give myself some time to think
But I couldn't see the shore anymore
And with that, I started to sink

Now I'm surrounded by a sea of people
As far as the eye can see
All still flowing in the same direction
But drowning in it, is me