I
  want
           you
                  so
          bad,
    but
          can't
 ­                 say
                        I
                  ­        love
                                  you
              ­             cuz
                     we
            can't
       be.
            Oh,
                  I
                    pray
                            we
        ­                         will
                                        be.
                ­             Please
                        let
                   us
              be.
WANT
              YOU
                       BAD

I met you with lonely eyes.
And looked through and found lies.
Lies that darkened your blue skies.
And at night, your heart cries.

Day by day we got closer.
And closer… and closer.
My heart starts to wonder deeper.
But I know nothing lasts forever.

I told you one worst day would come.
And it will be very bitter like r-u-m.
This made us so worrisome.
And I’m sorry, but I know this day will come.

One evening,
The moon and stars wasn’t shining.
Because that evening…
You told me you were leaving.

I already knew, but still felt pain.
I already knew, but still in vain.
I already knew, but still it rained.
And with that, it made me insane.

I regretted things.
I lost my feelings.
I felt my heart breaking.
I hear my mind screaming.

And there I was, at the edge I stood.
Watching the sun as it slowly sets.
Wishing that we never had met.
Because you are too hard to forget.

pord sraeT
ylwolS
skeehc ym nwoD

gnillews seyE
gnihca traeH
gnippird doolB

lufniap oS
lufdaerd oS
derit ma I

I love you so much!!!
I miss you too much!!!

Every night,
She is always in my mind.
Every night,
I always wish to be with her.

I loved her since then.
I never gave up on her.
She knows that I love her.
She knows that I am totally hers.

I met her when we're young.
She was just on her sweet sixteen.
I was just fourteen,
Young and dumb I was.

I will never forget her starry eyes,
When I first gazed into it.
Then and only then I knew,
I have finally found my one and only.

Why do we love?
Why do we get hurt?
Why do emotions exist?
Why do we have feelings?

Why is relationship a need?
Why cannot we be all alone?
Why do we long for someone?
Why do we ask this kind of questions?

As the sun arose the horizon,
I am engulfed by clouds of poison.
Green and toxic it may be,
The beauty of the morning sun numbs me.

As the storm comes,
No clouds hover over me.
The sky is clear and free.
I am calm as the birds hum.

As the rainbow shines,
I feel the rain fall.
The sky is grey and sad.
Why am I crying this bad?

As the sun sets behind me,
The darkness then ate me.
Waking up with no past to remember,
My heart now lost its ember.

I want to forget those memories.
Memories that was once a melody.
Now, it's just pain and melancholy.
I still wish to forget those memories.

I want to rewind and go back in time.
The feelings that grew.
Those peaceful chimes.
It's all gone like away birds flew.

I want to feel again.
Hearts bled and became numb.
Feelings can't be bargained.
That's the rule of thumb.

I want us to come back.
The future saw what lacks.
The past is contained and packed.
Yet the present still can't bring us back.

Every night,
Let your tears fall.

She's the girl of my dreams <3
She's the queen of my kingdom <3
She's the mother of my kids <3
She's the light of my home <3

Her name is Abby <3
My one and only. <3

My comfort, I seek warm hugs.
Airport, I fly and soar free in the heavens.
Battles, war against myself.
Ends, to never say good-bye.
Love, I am addicted to it like a drug.

Ever looked up the sky?
Where either no stars or billions are?

When you see them,
Ever saw the brightest one?

Shining so bright,
That you catch yourself staring?

Watching for hours on end,
Up above a dark night sky.

Just looking...
Looking at that single star.

Love is so sweet,
That you ignore the mete.
When you hear her voice,
Your soul starts to rejoice.

Love makes you so high,
That your brain is literally in the sky.
A single glance from her starry eyes,
Instantly melts you down like ice.

In this garden of rose,
I am a mere petal.
As each one nears the ground,
Your lessons grasp us,
Embracing our importance.

Your words gracefully flutter out,
Captivating valuable lessons to heart
How precious one is,
To be capable of gathering such knowledge.

Akin to archangels,
Who reach to our hearts
Diaphanous in tongue
Yet more than words could ever pierce

Drops like the rain
Abundant unto the tender grass
Prime a seedling
With manna-like expertise

Let us sit by the water’s edge
Give heed to the music of the waves
Noticing every creature in it
Understanding the importance of each one

He who created you
Had a reason to
Memorable moments to cherish
For time could fly and perish

Only a few moments of connection
Misty, undefined, and perhaps even doubtful
But you, my eyes, search beyond what is seen
You, who my soul resonates with

Lead my steps, I know you will
And pray I'll never deviate
For a few moments, your love so strong
Encases me in my resolutions

Oh, how I deny the moment.
I can't believe this would happen.
I don't want to believe.
I don't want you to leave.

I hate you for leaving.
My heart burns in anger.
I hate that I gave everything.
Oh, how you killed my ember.

I kneel on my knees.
Begging, I'd do anything.
Just to make me at ease.
I bargain to nothing.

I can't go on.
I can't move on.
This is my end.
I've got nothing to defend.

A promise to never give up.
I kept and stood up.
I still have a future.
I still have life's treasure.

Why waste shedding a tear,
If you can just disappear.

A star is born.
So young and dumb.
Resents in life and in love.
Independence he wishes,
Eager to break free.
Little star, space is dark.

The happiest and saddest memories.
Remember them all for centuries.
For those moments,
Are life’s components.

Without these memories or those moments,
then, “Who are we?”
“Who are you?”
And “Who am I?”

“Past, present, and future.
Everyday we enter an uncertain future.
Anything can happen, nothing is sure.
But the past is key to making a better future.”

Let us not forget our History.
For our stories then,
Helps us create tomorrow’s story.
In every decision, let us be wise men.

“Past, present, and future.
Everyday we are in a twilight.
Where it’s neither past nor future.
So, every second is like a unique starlight.”

Treasure every moment.
Remember all memories.
For time runs fast, and life is short.
So let us not take time for granted.

I know dreams fleet.
And I know they won't repeat.
But how are you there?
In every dream that I bear.

I'm in my dark place.
With my catastrophic pace.
Yet you did not get dismayed.
And you still stayed.

My erronous ideas in the dark.
You made it spark.
For the first time, I felt jubilant.
Where no one just can't.

You did not renounce on me,
You chose to stay with me.
Even though  I'm cranky at times.
You still gave your time.

But all this is just a project of my brain.
I'm now back with consternation and pain.
This was my shred of hope in my dreams.
I finally woke up after a decade of dreams.

Blue skies and fresh air.
A vast forest with trees higher than sky scrapers.
An ecosystem, where all natural systems runs smoothly.
Where nothing disturb the natural systems unequally.

Bonfires and music.
History was built and written, yet no wars nor chaos existed.
Human beings fought for survival, but no one sought for greed.
All lives were lived, yet not a single society live with toxicity.

An equilibrium exist between nature and humans.
All things exist with their own purpose.
All this things exist in Pandora,
Yet can't exist in our planet Earth.

I promised you we'd be together.
I promised you I'll love you forever.
So, why?
Oh, why am I lying in the clouds all alone?
All alone without you forever.

Your tears felt like acid on my skin.
You knew how I am.
You pushed all the right buttons.
All my buttons that let you in.

You changed things without me noticing.
Though you really think I wouldn't?
I definitely did, you just didn't know.
I made you think I was ceasing.

Your silence is my punishment.
Lost myself in the process.
There's no one to come back to.
My old self is gone in an instant.

I took you by surprise!
You definitely saw the hatred in my eyes.
I just didn't have the words to let you know.
IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT! now you know.

To whom it may concern,
    We went through a quick journey, and it was fun. I had a great time creating memories with you. Though it was just a journey for a couple of days, we made the most of it. We had our laughs and tears together. All that was enough for me to love you.
    
    Tonight, we started to put our limits. Though I felt like I lost you, deep in my heart told me to stay. I wanted to do better this time even if it cost me to break my heart all over again. It'll be worth the wait, worth the sacrifice, and it's going to be the worthiest pain to bear. I know all of this is going to be worth it in the end, even if it will cost my life one day.

    I am not saying goodbye to you. I'm just trying to say that I'll still be here waiting for you, even though the uncertain future tells me that I may not be the man for you to marry. Along our personal journeys, we will meet a lot of new people. These people will enter our lives and maybe you'll find the man who'll be the best for you.

    I will be there on your wedding day, and that's promise. Though I know that your wedding will be the happiest day of your life, it will be the most painful day of my life. I'll be seeing the woman I really love being married to a man who's better than me. This is most likely to happen in the future, but I will keep my promise to wait for you until the very end.

                                                           ­             Sincerely yours,
                                                          ­              ...

As I walk down the path of roses,
Where each rose is a reminiscence,
I saw your smile after a century.
A smile that never faded in my memory.

Oh, how the story is so colorful.
So beautiful...
Yet everytyhing is so illusional.
So delusional.

I reached the end of red roses,
And entered the path of gray.
Where nothing but just sad tears,
And the words "I'm okay..."

I thought everything is all about ups and downs,
Or reds and grays, or laughters and breakdowns.
I though it was a cycle that never ascends.
But never thought of will the story ever end?

A trip down memory lane,
Makes you insane.
But you'll relize as you transcend,
The stories then, now, and beyond...
NEVER ENDS.

Two lost souls walking by the bay.
We met in the most unexpected way.
I glanced in your glistening eyes as you passed by.
You looked back to my teary eyes.

I wonder what you're thinking?
Seeing me crying.
I shouldn't be overthinking.
For you are just a stranger passing by.

Red roses, purple skies
Yellow lanterns like stars up high
Blue moon, white smiles
Loud laughter heard from miles

Green auroras, orange sunset
There is nothing to regret
Gold rings, silver necklace
Your value will never be less

Scarlet dress, lilac flowers
Princess pink confetti showers
Dream eyes, daisy halo
You're such a pumpkin cause I say so

Peach powder, scent of lavender
Who knew you are lovelier
Crimson lips, plum nails
The journey of life you shall sail

Eighteen colors,
You are described
Eighteen years,
You are alive

Get up and make a loop,
Cross your fingers,
And make a wish and dream...
Death offered the best escape.
Death,
Is painless for those who died,
And painful for those who felt.
Death,
Takes away!
Death,
Does not give!
Death,
He destroys.
Death,
He does not heal.
Let go...
Let go of those wishes and dreams.
Because Death came that night,
And turned my special shooting star,
Into Stardust.

Red heart,
Full of blood and life.
Beating and thumping.
Loud and clear.

Blues came.
Silence ringing - Screams unheard.
Pain flows - Tears fall.
Lashes bleed - Scars form.

Purple heart.
Fought so hard.
Til its last beat.
Til my last breath.

In the middle of the night
With all my might
I fight your bite
Darkness looms
Green eyes blooms
You leak poisonous fumes
I gasp for air
I'm in despair
I am passed repair
Up my walls you slither
You make everything sweeter
Yet sneakily bitter
Long white dress on her
The sound she makes, it's her
The hypnotizing whisper
It is you The Viper

Listen to her heart beat.
It shall be music to your ears,
It is your key to herself.
Your key to her thoughts and feelings.

Oh, how things are really great.
Wishing that they wouldn't break.
Oh, how easily it takes,
For her heart to break.
Only one word it will take!
And everything will break!
Oh, she's fragile!
Oh, she's fragile!

Left unclear.
Another night,
Where she’s not near,
Out of my sight.

I love her forever.
I miss her than ever.
I will wait for her,
Until HAPPY EVER AFTER.

Roses,
Proses,
Causes,
Losses.

My
                     Mind
                                                               Is
Everywhere

                                          I
                                                                                    Am
So
                       Stressed
                                                                    Out
A
                                             Week
            Of
                                                                                                      Rest
                          Is                                                  Not
                                       Enough
How
                   To
           Stop                                Overthinking
                                                                                     My                      Head
                                Hurts             So
Bad
                  I                                                Am
                        
                          Not
              
         Okay
                                                                   I                                         Need
        To                    Stop
                
                     For              

                                                                    A          
Moment                       And      
                                                                                          Take
                         A                                                Deep                                                
                            

                                                               Breathe
This
                    

                                Is                                                     Some

Random                                  
                                                      Blurted
          
                       Thoughts
        
                                                                                         That
Can                                             Be
                                
                 Read
                                                                               In
                                           So
                                                                                                            Many

Ways

only half i see
only half your beauty
a painting so gorgeous
half is dark and dangerous

such side must be filled
with broken pieces
with broken bones
with a broken soul

you bloom with so many roses
with thorns to defend you
strong and well guarded
yet you cry and die inside

Should I try to fear my own reality
Where she's finally happy.
Though this at the very pretty scene.
She ends up not with me.

Should I try to fear my own reality?
Where I end up alone.
I see her smile bigger than ours.
Will this finally set her free?

Wait for LOVE.
Search for LOVE.
Fight for LOVE.
Never give up on LOVE.

Please, please...
Never fall in love with someone else.