I really like her
but what did I do
there is a small chance
I did not take it

I am scared
I was too scared
now I'm terrified

my friend
her friend
now her boyfriend

She gave him a chance
I was to slow
too scared to love
too ashamed of myself

the emotions inside me
inside me hes confused
inside me hes jealous
inside me is getting out of control
inside me is an angry lion roaring
searching for the true cause why am I angry

but one night I thought about her
and thought about him
i got jealous
emotions burst
I want to scream
the pressure inside is getting stronger
I need help
I need to pray
and I cried

I cried that I made a mistake telling her "I like you"
I was mad that I made a mistake not telling her earlier, "I really like you"

sleepless nights did not help
It only worsen the situation

I guess we cant get everything
but if I can wait
If my heart is still beating to her, for her
maybe Its a chance

now I need to love myself first
my heart is my heart it beats for my body
not for a girl not for anybody
but for me to love others
I need to love myself first

pictures are deceptive
because they don't capture
the sound of your laugh,
or the way your eyes light up,
or the blush spilling across your cheeks
when you're embarassed.
pictures are deceptive
because they don't let me feel your breath
on my skin,
nor smell the shampoo from your hair.
pictures are deceptive
because they show me one
tiny, fleeting, minuscule
frame of you-
so shallow and superficial, when i know
how much more there is
to see