I promise you she wasn't always broken
She use to be a whole
But life kept hitting her
Right in her fragile heart
She loved too hard
Loved too long
Always forgave
Buried the pain
But it lingered in the air
It touched her in the dark
Scared her
She use to smile all the time
Though she can't remember that now
She use to laugh
Use to explore and feel free
She was wild and happy
Now she's barely there
Just a shadow of a girl
Calling herself a woman
She wasn't always broken
She was so in love that she felt
As though her heart had grown
Maybe that's why the brokenness
Hurts so badly now
She wasn't always broken
But I think a part of her was never
Quite whole either.

I wonder all the time
If you think of me
If small things remind you of me
I wonder if you run your own hands
Through your hair
I wonder if you've found love again
If you're out there and you think of me
Please know sweetie pie
I miss you everyday
We can never go back
But I hope one day we can move forward
I know I can't find love
Not when my heart always wears your name
But I hope you do
Maybe she'll be innocent
Maybe she'll be a good cook
Maybe she'll have all your love
She would be the luckiest woman ever
I was once a lucky woman
But that was in another life now it seems.

Suddenly
She takes back everything
She would let him hurt her
Every way possible
If she could get just one
Just one
Moment of love and affection
The pain he gave was always easier
Than the pain a life without him gave
And his love was the sweetest
Nectar she had ever known
And now she will never taste
The bittersweet flavor she had loved
So **** much.

She ***** up
As tight as she can
And she cries
And her soul aches
And she misses him
For the billionth time in her life
And it's all so pointless
And all she wants is a knife
And all she does is cry
Everything is falling apart
And she has nothing
No happiness
She misses love
Misses hugs and kisses
And comfort
She misses so much
She's broken
And she can no longer fix herself
No longer pretend it'll be okay.