caught in a lie
take me out of the hell

after all this time
i am glad you left
your absence was
the pillar.
that taught me how
i could stand on my
feet.

when i'm alone
all alone
i can’t stand myself
i fill my head with lies
that i force myself to believe
with you
they all went away

I need

when tomorrow comes,
the bright light will shine so don’t worry


this isn’t a stop
but just a pause in your life for a break

“it was the first fissure in the columns that had
  upheld my childhood, which every individual
  must destroy before he can become
  himself…  such fissures and rents grow
  together again, heal, and are forgotten, but in
  the most secret recess they continue to live
  and bleed.”

every individual must destroy
before he can become himself

“the bird fights his way out of the egg.
  the egg is the world, who would be born
  must first destroy a world.  the bird flies to God
  The God’s name is Abraxas.”

and everything,

           everything went wrong.

comfort me
     on

                  *every side

how do we live
how do we breathe
how do we climb

shadow
shadow
is the only friend that I have

echo
echo
is the only voice that's coming back

never find someone

who'll understand you

I loved

       and I loved

                 and I lost you

words and images are two different animals

love me now

touch me now

when you see me,



when you touch me

will I feel better after meeting someone?


I remember the old times



*I remember you

been running

without looking back

    when the reality hits me

please be my guidance

take all my pain away

     go away

my cut gets healed by your touch

you know the antonym of


loneliness

make me run
make me run

let my feet rip apart with wounds

you're my sun
one and only in this world
I bloom for you,
but you make me thirsty

           it's too late,
           too late

I can't live without you
even if I'm drying out,
I try harder to reach you

but it's no use,
it's a dream to be broken

my selfishness that couldn't let you go




turned into an obsession that imprisoned you

the promises we made
disappeared

                                                                                              with the time we
                                                                                                  spent together

your soul is made of lies and half eaten lollipops

you can smile as long as we're together

the people you love
become ghosts inside
of you and like this
you keep them alive

"take your time but please tell me the secret on how to be better. I am the night sky and a dimly lit room all in the same sentence and I don’t really know where to put the period. some days I am better and I’m here with this abundance of love in my heart and the other days I am all alone and no way to cope with the sadness. give me the grass stained jeans and give me the love I used to feel but not while in the arms of others. I’m not alone but sometimes I am. let me learn how to cope with the bad days and let me learn how to find comfort in my own arms and my own bed and then I swear I can give them the best parts of me after that. let me learn how to feel innocent and lovely again. let me learn how to heal again. let me learn."

he kissed
her like her lips
were air
and he couldn't

*breathe