I came here innocent
Just as the day starts
Clean and free of evil
Then the darkness comes and breaks our hearts

They started to change me
into what I am today
and I don't know if you can tell
But I've become the monster of the demon's hell

They led me astray
Onto a path that's broken and frayed
When they told me to lead them
I refused and turned away

But in the nightmares of demons
Where I seem to appear
I walk around in peace
But that's what the demons seem to fear

And what will become of this monster
Will I continue on peacefully
Or give up halfway through
Whatever path I create for myself
I hope it leads to you

I opened my eyes
wrapped in covers, drenched in sweat
and with no surprise
a sore throat and an aching head
I sit on the edge of my bed
used a towel to dry my neck
then I lit up a cigarette

I wipe last nights tears from the corners of my eyes
I can hear the birds sing a song I'd rather not hear
not really in the mood for the piercing sunlight
or anything that reminds me that I'm alive, or that I'm here

how I feel is unclear
I don't have my heart, but it's near
I can hear it's screaming from pain, from fear
that same fear that I have, that I might not see it again

last night
I truly believe
that you slept like a baby
while I
tossed and turned
staring at the ceiling

the smile you give me
leaves me hanging
on the whim that is us
and i cannot let go
because you and i
are a beautiful
thing.

i visited you on a Saturday
and i didn't know
       what to expect.
you wore a blue sundress
that afternoon,
and we stepped into the shade
of a weeping willow.

we laid and talked,
                    only talked and held hands.
after a while we walked back to
  where you sleep
                    and  talked again.
we talked and then
my love for you grew
  as a young man's love will naturally grow
when he is in the arms of his love,
  when he is in the arms of love.
                   we kissed
and such a sweetness i found!

a sweetness as only young ones know when
  tasting love for the first time came from
                     your mouth!
my God! your mouth...

and then we fell,
                     both of us this time,
  fell into something we did not understand,

                     but knew just the same!
we had been waiting,
                     one for the other...
to be complete
  we gave in to what we could only feel.

nothing we could see or had heard of could have

                     helped us learn this bravery
  against youth.

and so we fell,      
                     blindly, expectantly,
knowing only that
  my shadow, my highest,
                     my heartbeat

would always be yours:
  my first, my all-time, my yellow;
                     walk with me again...

Your hair like the fire
That I saw burning in you;
Red,
Setting you apart.

Why, exactly
Is my mind so unable to decode
The anger within your words;
The wrath in which I was unable to escape,
All because of a few things.
Things I did.
Things I said.
This "friendship"
Like a plane in a thunderstorm;
Irrevocably caught.
Each day another strike of lightning,
Sending us down, down,
Inevitably crashing.

Your eyes like the fire
That I carefully watched burn out;
Black,
Finally driving me away.

1 2 Let me love you,
3 4 Love you more,
I am wasting my time
in the most splendid ways,
I am putting my shirts on backwards,
I am putting my pants on inside out.
I am leaving your house
with half of what I came with.
I dont mind wasting my ways with you.
The smiles of melting,
the loves of a thousand affairs,
and the hands of a girl and a boy,
can get you very far.
My eyes cant get any bigger,
but they want to observe more,
my mind cant think any larger,
but it wants to imagine more.
Open my eyes, Crack my mind,
one inch up my body at a time.
Flowers growing up from my bed
laying me down in sweet sweet petals,
knowing soon you will come.
Come away with me to a beach,
shoes here, vows there, love everywhere.
Dont escape from this ring and me,
I will support you where ever life may be.
Here we go into this brave new world,
and the only thing I regret,
is the 17 years I spent with out you.

Resonate haiku
Creating sounds flowing through
Baby, please don't stop

Dripping melodic
Fantasy unravels me
Ululating, hmmm

Caressing notes float
My skin tingles with pleasure
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