you placed flowers in my heart and bees in my stomach

I feel myself falling in love with you
You said I love you
And I said it too

We went to our very own special spot
For no real reason at all
We sat and talked and looked at one another
And then the rain began to fall

We could have left just as quick as we came
But no, you wanted to stay in the rain
You asked me a question I�ll never forget
Have you ever tasted the raindrops?

I looked at you funny and you gave me a sigh
The cutest look, as I wondered, why?
Why, did you ask me to taste the rain?
Well, what did have to loose or gain?

I watched you with a careful eye
And did the same as you
You were looking up at the cloudy sky
But my eyes were stuck on you like glue

I lifted my head to look at the sky
And closed my eyes really tight
Just as I thought I�d caught a raindrop
You suddenly held me tight

I opened my eyes with slight alarm
As you kissed me soft and sweet
I remember that kiss like it was yesterday
I still feel those raindrops on my cheek

I tasted the raindrops like I never had before
It was worth every second of bliss
Every time I think of that moment
I think of my raindrop kiss

We sat close together on that one special rock
And we held each other tight
Then almost as suddenly as it came
The sun came out from beneath the rain

The most beautiful colors I�ve ever seen
Came out on the western sky
The sun was setting and the moment was perfect
More than any money could buy

As the sun slowly set and the sky lit up
You began carving our names in our special rock
I told you I would never forget this moment
In my heart this memory is locked

As our names were finished and permanently engraved
We watched the sun finish its day
We slowly got up to leave this place
Which was a year ago this May

I haven�t been to that spot in a year
Where did all the time go?
I will visit this place alone this time
And I will finally have to let go

This memory will be in my heart forever
But you will not remain in my mind
I don�t know if that love, will be seen again
For that love I cannot find

I will go to this spot as we promised we would
But you will not be there this time
Why is it that you can�t keep your promise?
I know that I�m keeping mine

Never again will I taste the raindrops
The way I did with you
And when I go to this spot again
I will say goodbye to you.
Neerav

boys and girls,
of ages alike,
flocking to the school
with no surprise.
meeting friends of old and new
though some sting and bite.
experiencing a new environment around
with no limits and boundaries.

Close your eyes feel the blood and flesh dripping form your mouth feeling the sweet revenge on your hands. Bullies that made you tears everyday with bruise on your face, refusing to look at yourself in mirror thinking what I did wrong to cause this pain. I don’t think there is a thing call love where all you see in this world is full of hate and dust falling from the darkness skies as shadows passing you by. Can’t help your body stop trembling of fear hearing little voices whispering you can’t do anything. But one day I let my demons took matter into my own hands feeling the anger building inside me. Smelling there blood from miles away feeling my hands through there thick skulls. And that when I realize this is where the river ends.

**By Jacob Cuadro

It bin years I haven’t see your beautiful face. I miss the way your eyes shine like stars at night, miss the way your hair smells like roses on a summer day. Waking up every morning seeing the sun rise remind me of your smile, and if I said I love you hundred times before, expect a thousand more but you took that away. I gave you my heart and soul treated you like the queen that you were but you took my heart instead, feeling empty and for gotten. Didn’t see my love but you saw what others thinks, you can keep my broken heart to remind you how selfish you are. Found something that I want is seeing you getting weak day after day as I take your greedy, selfish personality and shatter into your brain, tears running down your eyes feeling the pain of your cold sorrow heart. Your guilt of long lasting regrets will replaced the years we have spent this will be my only and new true love.

**By Jacob Cuadro

Roses are red violets are blue your eyes shine like the sun as bright as the moon. Love the way your hair smells like sweet flowers like the taste of your lips. Your smile and laughter bring me joy every time I spend time with you I just want more and more. If we ever separate it’s never too far as long you’re in my heart I be right beside you dear. As older we get time is always passing by my memory might fade away but your love remains the same. I’m grateful for you to be my  wife when it my time to say my final goodbye don’t worry we’re start our new life.

**By Jacob Cuadro

She looks in the mirror
with the knife at her throat
she’s so upset right now
she wants to let it all go
she cries out in anger
she’s so disgusted with life
that’s why she’s made her choice
she’s going to **** herself tonight
she sits on the floor
puts the blade to her wrist
she cries out in fear
she has to do this
the emotional turmoil she holds is too much
so she’s releasing it all
with one painful touch
she makes the cut
she starts to bleed
she stares in shock
as the blade falls next to her knees
it feels so good
it doesn’t hurt at all
she feels so lightheaded
all she wants to do is fall
she must have hit a vein
there’s so much blood
she’s starting to feel lifeless
she can’t even talk
she lays there on the floor
just counting the seconds
“5 more minutes” she whispers
as she waits to go to heaven
An hour later she’s dead on the floor
this poor innocent girl
she isn’t suffering anymore
all that’s left is the journals
in which she used to write
they explain her thoughts and feelings
that led up to that night.

I look up at the sky
I see the stars calling my name
they want me to join them
but if I did nothing would be the same
they are just so beautiful
I wish I was beautiful like that
instead I’m an 18 year old girl
who is nothing but ugly and fat
the way the stars shine
it takes my breath away
all ugliness fades
I love feeling this way
they dance in the sky
without a care in the universe
they sing in perfect harmony
they never need to rehearse
I was to be a star
I want to shine in my sky
I have every opportunity to become one
but I’m still here and I don’t know why
I guess it’s not my time to shine
I got things to do down here
I smile in disappointment
as I walk away from the only things
that make my life perfectly clear