I like to pretend
That I'm in control
Of all the strings and strands
Sometimes clips and rubber bands,
How they pull
And where they lead,
Where can I cut
Where do I add a knot,
100 miles per hour says the speedometer
And I'm pushing
Thinking that I will
Steer clear
Of a sudden wall
Or will I ram?
Which is easier
If I'm clearly
Not the pilot
Of my life,
What is this
A false sense of?
Do I lie
To make myself believe,
Or do find truth
In the mirage?

APAD16 - 009 © okpoet

I'm not going
To sit here and lie
That like apple pie
Gone from a window sill
I missed you,
Like all those socks
The minutes that escape
From all the clocks
How I feared
You wouldn't return,
What time could ****
Without our knowing
What we couldn't do
What we couldn't shape,
What I wouldn't endure
For a tenure
Next to you,
Night comes
But once a day
But you,
You are
My blue moon...

APAD16 - 008 © okpoet

I won't ever leave,
Not because
I have nowhere to go,
But because
Next to you
Is where I truly want to be,
You are
The other side
The just right,
******' perfect
The just one reason,
You are
The lemons
And chips,
Right side up
My good side,
All the hell and darkness
Gritty skies
And the bitter cold;
My insanity and distress
Is the absence
Of you...

APAD16 - 007 © okpoet

Overthink
Overthought
What am I
To get over?
She is the real Durden
Everything that I am not
But an apple turnover,
Spickle and spackle
Listen to the crinkle
And the crackle,
What plays the mind
If the records
No longer spin,
Retreat retreat retreat
On repeat
No baffle
To this wiffle
Waffles in the AM,
Pockets empty
There is nothing to collect
Unemployed dreams
I question the sparkle,
The sweet of the sprinkles
This life long ago wrecked...

APAD16 - 006 © okpoet

Drowning
But can't
Won't
Fight the current,
Let myself sink
To the bottom,
Hold my breath
Until I either surrender
Or come up,
But I won't give up
And I can't figure out why,
What's the prize?
High price
To pay,
For the light of day
To shine,
Breath in
Can't stop
To choke,
Laugh hard
Even if I don't know
What is the joke,
There is no reward
For this pain...

APAD16 - 005 © okpoet

He comes
Under the stealth of night
Dark as darkness
In the absence of light,
As she dons
Nothing
The beast within
Unveils herself,
A want
Not unlike a thirst
Is it soul against soul
Or a moth burning
To her light?
What does he take
If she has but one thing to give,
Is this what
Is this all
That we come for,
On all fours
Bare all
Can't take nothing back
Is there any depth
To the smile
As her heart beckons?

APAD16 - 004 © okpoet

I engineered
And I constructed
Towers majestic
Rising above all
The clouds shrouded
Like steps to the heavens,
And on the highest
Of pedestals
I placed her,
Thought her a queen
But that crown
Was not golden,
Oh how she has fallen
Bruised and broken
A landing that shook
All the foundations,
But I can rebuild
Quickly I can cobble together
A wall to hold and hide within
The truth that has been revealed,
No one the wiser
Least of all her,
Shambles and ruins
Cloak her as she shivers
A cold she cannot shake,
Where she aimed
I do not know,
A moving bulls eye
Perhaps,
I'll still kneel before her...

APAD16 - 003 © okpoet