Love is a violation of my personal space , *******.

Slowly it will die
one must take precaution
When letting someone slide
inside
They'll stab you
then tell you they are sorry
They wont remove the blade
their care is often shoddy

Apologies are insufficient medicine for wounds
hugs will not suffice in medicating toxic fumes  
Love is all i asked of you it seems it was too much
id rather be alone instead of longing for your touch
A crutch
a burden
A dream i couldn't grasp
true love is only seen with TV cast's..

I am not a drug
for you
To use
abuse
Toss
sell
Ingest
or test
For her
maybe
Loved very greatly
until things were shakey and
I was left achey..
alone

Rise like the sun
fall like the moon
The food is preserved
like tut in the tomb
Ache till you die
or rise from your grievance
Be someone great
they'll marvel at achievement
If they disagree
you'll wallow in a sea
Of what you should've done
of what you couldn't be
Disregard the people
they know not what they do
They do not look inside
they only look at you

Blame revolving issues on foreign and ruling entities
fall in love again and my friend again is my enemy
I am not the same as i was
before you severed me
Knowing that when push comes to shove
you wont remember me
Guess i cannot fill in this void
with someones pleasantries..
You really don't belong
inside my deepest thoughts
My feelings are still strong
i hate that..

Nobody cares bout your heart ache
start making money
Walkin round town folks
looking at me funny ;
No practical skills
not a lawyer or a genius but..
I can tell you how it feels
in multitudes of ways
To not wanna be real
to want to fade away ;
I can show you how
my inner being drowned
From being in this town
from staying on the ground ;
Everyones an alpha dog
always looking down ;
Never eat the scraps
just leave them on the ground ;
I often danced to sounds
like no one was around
To noise they couldn't hear
till no one was around..

The way i feel inside does not match my expression