So here I go again
Feeling those feelings
Forcing them away

Sadness now fleeing
Left am I
With feelings of being

My body stands not one chance
Against the forces of the mind

I tossed a coin into the deepest well
Did my wish hit bottom, it's hard to tell
I've tried it all not sure what else
I can do to have you to myself

I've had nightly readings of the tea leaves
Hung hundreds of dream catchers from dozens of trees
Even wore my share of Mojo beads
What else do I need

I have snapped my fingers and kept them crossed
Stepped into the ally where the dice was tossed
Conjured swirling smoke from a Crystal ball
Wished upon the stars as I watched them fall

I have tried all of these and many more
Knocked on the wood of a oaken door
If you my dear are keeping score
It is you I've done all this for

Will you please pass the memories of the time that we spent
Chasing down each others dreams
Too many years of not sure where they went
Nor when they decided to leave

From out the frosted window I watched you wave
As I boarded this high speed train
I don't have to tell you how much has changed
Since you and I were seventeen

The park that we favored is now a parking lot
Progress took what we had and gave it away
Better to have what we had than to have had it not
Though since those days life hasn't been the same

This you'll never read for the fact that we lost our place
In the line that we used to be
Like I said before so much has changed
Since you and I were seventeen

Young love, young innocence, playing to the notion
That it all makes sense on any given day
We took it back then on teenage emotion
Now all that's left is the ache of separate ways

With the swirling of memories I'm in too deep
Nothing more to say on this still high speeding train
Except once more to note that nothings the same
Since you and I were seventeen...

You gotta be kidding me Ms. Ogyny
That's why you hate yourself?
Because your have ******* and a ******?
You find it the most unforgivable sin
To be plagued by estrogen

Tell me Ms. Anthropic since we're on the topic
Why do you despise human kind?
What about them troubles your mind?
You think they're disgusting and not to be trusted
Someone or something made you this way, it must of

Life, life oh deadly life
It plays by the rules of day and night
I just wanna feel alive
And know, just know I'm doing right

But right alongside that feeling
There are times when I wanna die
I wanna be under the ground and sleep forever
There are time when I feel like that'd be better

So Ms. Ogyny I guess I see
Why you hate yourself because I hate me
I hate myself more than anyone else
I'm just a notch on Ms. Fortune's belt
Or maybe I'm just the welt

So Ms. Anthropic, I guess I'll drop it
Because I get where you're coming from
People are cruel, ill-mannered and inexplicably dumb
And from this cold hard fact I've become numb
I cannot wait for Kingdom Come

And I Mr. Fyde, wish I would die
Because now I realize how much I hate my life
I suffer from incredible self-dislike
The pain is obvious from the outside
And I say my goodbyes as I commit suicide

i was laying down
and you laid down beside me for seconds
and i could feel the electricity
when our eyes connected
and when our bodies were near,
and as if you were electrocuted
you sat upright
and left me
with an aftershock.

|m.s.