I'm about to go off
hit all the walls
and the mirrors

It was a sunny afternoon
when I lost you
later I saw a supermoon
but there was no point
stuck in my room
where I didn't see the sun
for days

weeks and months
waste into lost time
I can never return
in the days
where we held hands

my love vanished
somewhere in the air
I hope to catch it
and give it back to you

On a sunny afternoon
I lost my love for you

At Dusk
I regained my love
for myself

most important of all

Im thinking all day
A way to ruin your perfect face
    You know the maze
   Every corner every wall
Dont come
You have been staring behind my head
   Can't burn what's too frozen
  We're like convection currents
Sit close but seats away
Dont come again

And i waste my day figuring out a
Way to avoid you
  But you always find a way to make
Me smile

I believed
I could have you forever

I was asking for too much
I can't have that

I wanted to call you
in love

I wanted to say
I love you

too many bandaids
for all the cuts you left on my heart

I'm bleeding
all over again

missing you
missing you is the worst pain
I didn't want to experience


say you miss me too
say you love me too
say you think about me too

ease my mind
I haven't heard your voice in so long

what's on your mind
I can't tell you what's on mine

disconnected
are we still best friends

I can be isolating
you're away in unknown places

trying to find new love
even if you cross my mind

tempted
and delusional

hoping we find our way back together
I can't find someone better

you're the worst of all
no one hurts me like you

you're so unloving
leave me wanting more

more and more till
I crumble apart

keep to myself
don't ever give up

crack my heart open
I have to leave you
you'll love me after I go

It's cold
but the memories
of you holding me
still keeps me
warm

don't feel so sorry

....................................
                          ­             I don't care

                                                                ­         leave
                                                                ­           me
                                                              ­              be
  ????                  
                       ­                                                                 ­!!!!

Maybe if you love me
You should tell me something

where's your pain
where do you keep it hidden

white pages
burned down to brown

Do you feel down

Your perfect life
I'm envious
of what you have

red lights
keep us down

I'm still with you
even now

where we don't speak
it's been more than a few weeks

when it hurts me
does it hurt you

does it ever hurt you

the party next door is loud
you like me
ʀᶦᵍʰᵗ

take my hand
go to the dark side

want to see Pluto
He's mad at you

you love me
ʀᶦᵍʰᵗ

hold my hand
into the constellations
you can't see with
the naked eye

amaze me

feel the edge of the universe
kiss me

humans aren't so beautiful
once you see their brains

wrapped around
your vicious head

To a nearby galaxy

sleep

standing under a sea of stars
I want to stay there forever in the dark

I wish I was a star
living
shining
only in the night sky

so you can only see me
when the sun falls

I'm myself when
everyone is asleep

this is who I want to be
someday

I felt tall
swimming in between
mountain valleys

Now I'm crossing over
smaller I grow

Doesn't really make sense no

I lost myself
yesterday afternoon

Who am I
today

My whole body disappeared

No one is coming

I saved myself this morning

maybe I'll leave soon
I know you want me too so
take a break I'm off

Its ten
should I sleep
I can hear you
I can't see you

I know you're around
never close enough

I want to be everyone's favorite
I want all the attention
    My heart begs to be loved

I'll always be little
I'll never be enough
to fill your expectations up

Good evening
I wish I had some meaning

I try to change the night before
waking up to restart

the moon keeps changing
she never waits for me

All the movies I've watched alone

Your company is gone

These days I feel no warmth
No happiness by someone new

Where are my friends
Are they talking to someone they like better than me
Are they shopping and wasting their parent's money


I miss you
I loved you


All these songs I listen alone
Without anyone to tell

Drive alone
Sleep cold
Eat alone
Showers cold


All of these moments wasted
Without someone
To love

In a strange room
Don't know me or you

Unknown walls
Furniture & all

Uncomfortable
Staring
And not talking

Because he took me
Somewhere
With someone
I do not know

In places where I do not
Know myself

I don't have pictures of you on my phone

I wonder why we don't talk anymore

it doesn't make sense

you're like a shooting star
so fast you disappear from my sight

I had you inside my hands

a year meant nothing

all the days and nights

burn to ashes I'll never see again

so easily we give up

I'll won't see you again

it's just all so sad to me

I can't forgive myself

but I will miss you every afternoon

when time stops and I think of you

I wanted to be the sky
with you beside me

I'm dizzy
trace you onto me

you twist with my emotions
I'm innocent
you noticed

I'm quiet
you realize

I'm shy
I'm not naive

you don't know that

give me the bottle
giggles tangled in the loud music
my body feels lucid

you have a liar's love
I found myself
dizzy in your hands

I lost myself in your eyes
I'm still trying to come back

I don't trust you one bit
still
I want your touch

agree to disagree

If you despise me
go away

if you are disenchanted
look away

say I sin
call my love forbidden

love the sinner I am
I feel like a god
my veins
almost closing in

this love is all I need

Everyone is gone
fearful of the cold
stay home
where you're warm

I've seen beautiful people
beautiful flowers

I've heard beautiful melodies
beautiful voices

None compare to you
We should stop talking

We drive in circles
we drive each other crazy
I love that

When the 1st came around
I didn't feel so around

Wherever you are
I feel half full

I'm talking
not listening

The moment feels like forever
until you see the full moon

I realize I haven't seen such beautiful

It's the only way

looking somewhere else
I can't ever see ahead

I'm addicted to medicine
so much can harm me

there's nothing left to lose
I lost everything I found

I made a mistake
losing my mind

you were my star
you burned me off

I can't see a thing
you were my star

orbiting around me
I will never be free

so much medicine
will heal me

She was craving a yellow cake
   To fill her up with happiness

I follow all the young women
writing down their pain
to relate

I follow all the young girls
trying to write out a piece of true love

I follow those who dream of perfection

Who want something more
than what is given

true love
It's only a myth
A soulmate you wish for
doesn't exist

I only ever follow the girls
who know the disappointments

the women who are well with heart breaks

all so I can say
yes I feel the same

your love is grey
it doesn't feel cold
I never feel warm

your love is grey
I don't feel it
sometimes I only want to see it

your heart is broken
I swim deep waters
to reach the missing pieces

I cut my wings
to keep you warm

why is your love so grey?
never get a smile
or expression of pain

not a sound of love
or sight of hate

sent you a message
you didn't respond

I've noticed lately
we don't talk the same
you're different
am I to blame
I wonder
what I've done wrong
I can overthink for hours
still I'll make sure it's your fault

lately
we're so distant
so different
I can't remember when
you were so close
I felt everything for you

it's sad
it's blue

do you even care
we fell apart slowly
catch all the pieces falling

you give me nothing
I can't trust you

feeling so incomplete
tell me
I'm wrong

can we save this
I cut our strings

bring me back
it hurts to look

I don't miss you
I don't miss you
I don't miss you

do I need you

do I even need you

I know you're not okay

I hate to see you going through all of this

but

I'm sorry

I don't miss you
I don't miss you

I don't ask about you
I don't think about you

truth is
I'm doing so much better
right now


I don't mind us slipping
further away

I hope you break free
I want to see you happy

I still love you

I just

don't miss you

I see
Your wings fell off

Nothing I can't fix
My love

It's the morning
I have no dreams

I guess you're stuck with me

I'm never going to feel guilty

The day I do
I'll bleed

You made me cry
Cold tears
I don't know how

The voice in my head
Says you're mean
It's probably just me

I've been thinking what I need

Nothing matters
Nor do I

Only the sun
And the sky
The earth
The stars
And life

We don't matter
It's us against us
No ever wins
A game with no ending

I'll be sticking with
Me

It's morning I should sleep

can I tell you
llıʍ I

all the good
ɓuoɹʍ os ǝɹ,noʎ

you try
ǝıl sʎɐʍlɐ noʎ

I can go on
ɓuol ɹoɟ ʇou

we're so close
uıɐɓɐ sǝʌlǝsɹno ɓuıɔuɐʇsıp

the only reason people stay is
for my pretty eyes
they like how I make them laugh
all that matters is my body
even my smile is a real catcher
the way I walk
I'm Lost

no love
all about the physical side

what happened to our heartbeat
and feelings

no love
love is dust

me sigues en mis sueños

me tocas el corazon

I'm okay

te quiero

si no me quieres

está bien

te veo en mis sueños

no dejas mi corazón

How should I fall asleep

with so many memories on replay

it's about us right now
you are with me

you're leaving
I'm with you

by heart

I'm wasting time
looking for things
so many distractions

I'm with you
it's all about us

how will I fall asleep
you're running in my head

she painted her nails red
she didn't have red lipstick

I'm not sure if I should hate you
since I still miss you

caught in the thought
I should be focused on present time
not in last month

are you going say HI
because you never said goodbye

losing time
what are you doing tomorrow
I think I'm losing my composure

thinking about our memories
I was going to delete
not so sure anymore

should I forgive you
since I miss you

when you became it all for me
I never took a glance back
what was I missing

keep your thoughts on me
there isn't anyone else

you've forgotten
everything I made you feel

crying out for help
the sun is half

I love you so much
I can't look at anyone the same

I'm sober
dreaming the pain away

half of the sun is up
the other half is yours

I just want you to ask for me
come back and see me

I love you
I'll never forget

trying to let the feelings fall away

I never looked back
never blinked an eye

now I'm regretting
our last goodbye

I love someone
who doesn't love me the same way

I'm constantly changing
now everyday I'm dreaming

You lay by the sun
so I won't see you leave
I can't believe
I'm really nothing

today I feel like a speck of dust
against all these people
who have luck

I just want to go home
wherever that is

come and find me

you never look for me

why are you hiding

you make me heartless

these feelings bother me

come and see me

she's not looking

it's so right

feels wrong

The thunder was slowly
And the lightning constant
The rain seemed angry
Or maybe the skies clouds
Were depressed
All i could tell was that
They were crying hard

What is poetry now ?
What you think
What you feel ..
Your thoughts

Or just words you can't say
So you type it down instead

See you're making new friends
Slowly forgetting about me

The distance
The tension
Less conversations

I just want the day to come
When we act like strangers

We won't remember
The days we were together

Your standing in the shadows
I just want to be in the sunlight

We can't hold hands
Oceans apart

I can feel
You slipping away
From my heart

my back is hurting
I don't know why
I turn around
why are you holding knives

my heart is hurting
why
when I tell you what's wrong
you turn around

I'm cold I know
You're cold
and I try

why don't say it to my face

why are you walking away

I'm not going to fight
even then
you turn over

you're no good
I've heard it over and over

my back is hurt
from all the times
you've stabbed me
you chose to betray me
in the most pathetic way

slowly
I'm bleeding
but I'll let you know

I'm not so cold
You're so cold
and I'm not going to try

here's your knife back

You created a beautiful world
a flawless nature
a flawless earth

You created creatures full of mistakes
you created painful beings

I'm envious of the light
you created so ethereal

why am I not beautiful
like the ocean

you created such a perfect ground
humans tear apart

I'm disappointed you let such a celestial planet
go to waste