You created a beautiful world
a flawless nature
a flawless earth

You created creatures full of mistakes
you created painful beings

I'm envious of the light
you created so ethereal

why am I not beautiful
like the ocean

you created such a perfect ground
humans tear apart

I'm disappointed you let such a celestial planet
go to waste

you can break my heart
if I can break yours

back to back
we don't see eye to eye

if God hates me
I hate him too

angel boy your wings are suffocating
I can't breathe

you can see inside
don't reach out

I can see you falling
will you ignore me now

find my soul
give it a home

we won't survive
the burden

your guilty conscious
is killing us all

I slept to the sound of your voice

I dreamed I said hello
hoping dreams come true

Wish you were gone
wish I didn't remember you at all
curious what you're thinking about right now
if today isn't so great
tomorrow will be a big waste
if you ruin the mood
all you have to do is look at the moon
watch the sunset
go stargazing
life isn't all about
the past
even though I want to go back
if I were asked to pick one day
to live again
there's no certain decision
I would stay in the present

She told herself mulitple
Times
She was getting out of that
Cursed house
Live a different life
Get a career
& Find love

Too bad everything fell to fast

Blue rain
we were stuck in a daze
once out
we forgot all about it

Grey rain
the loved we carried
evaporated
it'll always be living

Pink rain
when I first saw a new pair of eyes
I thought maybe this time

Orange rain
it fell apart
landed at my feet
thousands of possibilities
draining

Green rain
this evil sensation
is different
it's my turn to destroy
someone

white rain
my feet reach the end of his bed
his innocence is slowly leaving
out the door

black rain
it's a shame
several colors
gone to waste
wait another year
another blue moon

red rain will fall soon

When the cold air starts to come out

I feel like I'm not around

Where does the wind go
After it dies

I'm not who I want to be

I act a way I shouldn't

People see me so differently

I don't know who I want to be anymore

When the lights turn off

I feel so lost

When I wake up early

I feel so calm

I am not who I want to be

Is there only one life
to live

Time will never wait for me

breathing demons
angel cutting
humans take advantage of God

I leave
It's raining
house is burning

You speak to me
say nothing

treat me like dirt
like I'm used

I leave
becoming the old me

Asking me what does this mean
house is burning
it's raining

Quiet mouse
crawling to her hole
she will say nothing yet

hiding away
I leave

Walls crumbling down

I'm the monster
runaway
I'm holding the knife

House burning down

I speak one word
You don't answer me  

I let out all my thoughts out

It's raining out
pouring down
****** rain
tears dried on my face

You're all so gloomy
You make me pessimistic

yellow rose petals
falling to the ground

I'll have to wait till Monday
to talk to you again
I haven't earned your trust

Everyone wants
to smoke my cigarettes
by this point I let them do what they want

I told you
I don't want him
I want her

I'll bet he's on your mind

I tried drinking
realized
it won't help

You're all so gloomy
it's bringing me down

I know
I also fall
into a blue state of mind

yellow rose petals
falling
what happens when it falls apart?

I've only ever felt euphoria
in silence
alone

And I've been waiting for the right one
to speak with a voice
filled with serenity

I don't want to live here anymore
killing myself slowly

I don't think I love you anymore
You're pulling me down

I believed
we were everything
you and I
were everything

believing
you loved me

stop lying
losing your faith in me

did you see me
for who I am

turning around

I don't want to be here anymore
I believed
You loved me

I'm always running away
from the liars

you lost your face
for a while

I'm such a fake

what a waste

pretending to be your best friend

why am I so hateful

I hate seeing you happy

I love eating your sadness away

makes my day

why are you never happy for me

you must hate me too

are we spinning this web of lies together

I can't even try to care for you

I tried to

I'm a liar

I told you so

the mask I wear is perfectly created

I can't take it off

maybe next time you want to leave

I hope you do

cheering for your downfall

I'm your bad luck charm

In the beginning
You made me so happy
but now all I'm feeling is sadness

I'm sad
I ever met you

Now all I feel is blue

When we first met
The sky was red

In the end
You became
what makes me sad

our winter
is looking blue
just like the last

this is the last time
we'll spend an october together

every day
feels like a countdown

for a sick separation
I know
this is going to hurt

I'm searching for a new home
and you've got your own

he doesn't have a ring
for you yet
hoping he finds one soon

I'll be so far away
by the time
you realize
this is all a big mistake

our last autumn
ending soon
we died faster
than the falling burnt leaves

this is going to hurt
what else can I do
try and move on

no distance
or time
can cure this heart split in two

is it so
crazy
to ask
someone
please
love me
even if
it's
a lie
my
lowest
place
I'm just
seeking
company
it feels
like I
live
with a
ghost
I see her
do everything
while I
sit back and
watch
waiting for
someone
this can't
be right
there
must
be
someone

love me
I beg
is it
too
much
to ask
don't
leave me
here
don't
let
me go
I'll turn
off my
morning
alarms
stay with me
is it a
possibility
I'll be loved
in this
lifetime
or am I
destined
to be
lonely
and miserable
every monday
starting the week
wishing for
silly romance

pathetic
it seems
I let pride
get the best of me
if I keeping
saying one day
maybe I'll
just forget
about today
trying
to forget
another
wasted
valentines day
I hope
you're not
reading this
go on
be happy
I bet you
have someone
to be so
lonely
like me
I wouldn't
wish it
on my
enemies
no more
crying
for me
I take
my tiny
heart
with
no hope
it will
survive
it's last
breath
on
the
lost love
I'll never have

You don't care about me
That's okay
Because the day I stop
You'll wish you did

I'm a bit dangerous when I smile
you always look away when I say the truth

thinking I'm not talking about you

I'm feeling upside down

whispering
the young are loved

I'm a little lonely
I'm feeling lovely

playing mind games
you smoke and drink
I follow your footsteps

having a little fun

whispering
the young are loved

now you love me so much
send me hugs and kisses

I can't hear the rainfall
my eyes are getting smaller

I'm feeling so young

you make me 21

following your steps
we only fall deeper

this darkness never ends
holding hands

send me hugs and kisses
there's magic in your kind of fun
a spell I'm under

when I fall back into reality
I'm reminded it's a curse

I have to look at the sky sometimes
while evaa sings to me

I realize that these days are bigger than they seem

The sun is looking for someone
so lonely

I'm small
compare me to someone else
I never reach the far

Gazing at the sky
deep in my eyes

I'm small
these days
are smaller than I thought

It's almost the end of the month

The cold wind hit my face
Like ice in rain

The sun could no longer
Keep me warm

I fought to run
Though no one really saw

If I were to Fall
I wouldn't dare hold on

I'm sorry if I mess up
I can't keep my mouth shut

and I've considered cutting off my tongue

I say all the wrong things
more than I've said good things

I want to turn away
and runaway

from all the hurtful words I've spilled
to you
and myself

I won't be able to stay

I want to go away

please stop calling me

I only make things worse
I'm always at a distance

in silence, I give my best advice

I want to turn away
go away

I never stay

holding all the things I want to say

I want to give you my happiness
My heart and the little love it contains
I want you to have my smile

Keep my joy
Save my youth

I'll give it all to you

I want you to have my eyes
my visions

My words
my stories

I need to give you a hug
please feel warm

If this is love

I'll give it to you all
- - -

I cried my eyes out for you too

I wrote it in tiny letters so you wouldn't see it
the piano and violin playing
from the other room
I thought you were sleeping

the night made from darkness
collapsed on us
frightened

my heart somewhere next to you
will I see you tomorrow
probably no
I hope so

everywhere I look
I try to find you

no messages
saying hello

my heart was tired
cigarette ashes on my shirt

I play angry
the song so melancholy

everyone telling me
who hurt you

my heart dying

supine
you told me lies

god is always cruel
selfish
jealous
self centered
god is a man

I spent valentines day alone
you didn't say happy birthday till she said so

you didn't ask about my purple hair
I know you don't care

I've been thinking about you
spinning in my head
dizzy in a waltz

my dreams are all about loving you
then I wake up to loathe you

forcing my eyes open
cover the hole in my heart with a band aid

hurts more to know
you don't want to let me go
kills me to know you don't want me at all

come find me
I'll let you go
I can finish us off

My heart aches
For your forgiveness

I know you'd buy me the whole world if you could
but you can't afford it

I'm stuck with you
miles away or face to face
you'll always haunt me
you act nice to get what you want

I can't forget you're all I had
really felt like I had no one

you were there
still you were no one

you didn't know how to care for me
how was I supposed to care about you

it's harder these days
we pretend
I didn't hear you say
all those things

you wanted to die
I wanted to **** myself

you loved a psychotic man
I'm scared of men coming close to me

what happened
did we make those things happen
did I watch it all happen

silent
you were always on the phone
I'd drink all alone

I wanted to cry
in the mornings when you were so depressed
you couldn't talk or move

I was so tired
of seeing you hate our home

I was hateful
we never had a home

I don't think I'll ever see you again
stop asking me

you messed me up in more ways than I can count

I'm not regretful
I'm not angry
anymore

I still love you
it's the worst part

it's the most painful

to love you
after all the **** we went through

you control me
manipulate me

I'll love you
like a fool

bleeding on the floor
it was your
it was my fault

I haven't seen you months
do you still hide the beer at the bottom of the fridge

how does it feel

is it lonely
is it quiet

so oblivious
people like you will never know

I don't like to hear myself breathe
I don't know what to eat
can I die in my sleep
tired of living this reality
I don't want to breathe
how do I break free

everything hurts
nightmares start to feel so real

there's no one to call
I'm all alone

light flicking
all alone

it's so cold
in the dark

fading away
deep inside my mind

there's a space
I created
hell or heaven I can't tell the difference

Sad girl
no control
why my dreams don't come true

miss I can't understand
I can't hear between the lines

it's fair
I'm giving you nothing

I'm the villain
stabbing you in the back

I walk in and out
I crawl ups and downs

no
you're not in love
you don't know me

please return your feelings
I can't accept them

I'm not hard to find
you will meet someone else

like me
there's plenty

Don't make me rot in my
Head

Make my thoughts
Happy again

There's still
The sound in ear

And no one
Is concerned to let me be healed

And I'm thinking of
all the things i regret

I'll probably go insane
So i go to sleep instead

When i wake up
Everyone watches my every move
Cause I'm the superstar

I make all them laugh

My family is full of hypocrites
I might be the biggest
One yet

And when they want me
Quiet i am
But then they say I'm to silent
And i could be more
Happy
I just don't get it

They ask me if I'm
Okay
And when i spill
All my problems
They just push them away
And that they'll help me
But really they just hurt me
Even more

I'm trying to sleep
Okay

But the sound in my ear
Is getting louder
  Getting louder

I'm sorry for what I said
I never called
you say this
and I that
so what will it be
can we still talk

I'm your world
you are my sun
I don't look out for you
I don't want to see you
I like the way you shine
I love the way your warm me up
I never want to see you
I keep you away

I'm sorry
I never answer your calls
I've become distant
trust issues
and insecurities
have torn me up
I can't look into
anyone's eyes
speak the truth

I'm your world
you're the moon
you're the wind
I can't see you

no
I'm wrong
I'm the moon
I'm the clouds
I'm the sun
I'm the wind
that passes by
I vanish
I'm so transparent
I've disappeared

can you even see me
for who I am

or have I become someone else

when I leave

will you search the universe for me

I'm your world
now you are mine

I see you from the storm
you're in the clear

I no longer love you like I use to

You've never listened to a word I've said


what makes me happy
makes me smile and laugh

You breathe with anger and envy

You'll never be happy like me

now that spring is gone
where is winter

I don't  like this summer
please don't take away the flowers

I'll pick up a pen
write on these empty pages

I'll behave
I'll love my mother

I want the rain
these sunny days
are burning away my brain

memories
are disappearing

I don't remember my friends

the walls are closing in
I don't want to lose myself

in this sun

this sun
blinding away
my hope

She saw him cry
His princess was *****
And a liar
He made a big mistake

She ran to catch up
To her understanding
And then was happy

She saw him and grabbed his hand
Saying he would be fine

She stayed
And he notice more things

I hope you know all
that I don't at all anymore
I think it's for sure

silent star

smile for the liars

gun to my head
I was told to swallow down my emotions

crying for all the robots who will never love me back

I am the dying sun
I am nothing and everyone loves me

I write sequels
skipping the introductions

I've lived
a million lifetimes

with a melting curiosity
what is life

I lost myself
when
I loved you

jumped into a black hole
to love you more

everything hurts

I hope no one finds out

Fullfilled
ghosts in the room
suns blowing inside
I know you love me more when I say nothing

So I don't speak
not a word

I think
not one thought

I come and go
You don't even know
You'll see me either in the morning or afternoon

I love him
I hate him
too much

My tears dry quicker than the water going down the drain

You don't see the stains
the sobbing

I love us all to much

I don't want to touch
distance keeping us so close

Blood is dripping out your mouth
my cheeks are wet and face red

Lying to my face

I speak not one word
Nor think

I love this house to much

can I see the moon again
or
should I see the stars today

I just want to take them home
with me

and put one on the ceiling

I'm too greedy
taking your love for granted

I use you to feel better
about myself

can I have the moon
and put it outside
for me

I just want the sky for me

not for anyone else

It doesn't matter when I push myself into the darkness

It hurts the most when you're the one to push me

you hurt me in many ways
reflect all your anger on me
I was convinced it wasn't my fault

the damage is done
you planted the idea
my head soaks it up

you push me into the dark
hurts a billion times more
than
pushing myself

She says
she feels a burst of emotions
within colors and shapes

Am I blind
did I not hear her words right

I feel like I'm from another planet

She reads art

I told her I felt a fire inside me
within the words and their meanings

Is she blind
did she not hear me right

I feel like she's from another planet

The way art transcends into our souls differently
is fascinating