Blue rain
we were stuck in a daze
once out
we forgot all about it

Grey rain
the loved we carried
evaporated
it'll always be living

Pink rain
when I first saw a new pair of eyes
I thought maybe this time

Orange rain
it fell apart
landed at my feet
thousands of possibilities
draining

Green rain
this evil sensation
is different
it's my turn to destroy
someone

white rain
my feet reach the end of his bed
his innocence is slowly leaving
out the door

black rain
it's a shame
several colors
gone to waste
wait another year
another blue moon

red rain will fall soon

All the movies I've watched alone

Your company is gone

These days I feel no warmth
No happiness by someone new

Where are my friends
Are they talking to someone they like better than me
Are they shopping and wasting their parent's money


I miss you
I loved you


All these songs I listen alone
Without anyone to tell

Drive alone
Sleep cold
Eat alone
Showers cold


All of these moments wasted
Without someone
To love

What is poetry now ?
What you think
What you feel ..
Your thoughts

Or just words you can't say
So you type it down instead

i waassssss
typinggg
beforeee
youuu hit mee

i stareee intoo
spacee moree oftenn

alll thesee redd linees

caan't findd thhe righht tiime tto cryy

ii knoow imm richh
whats iit maatter
in thhis tiime

ii havee tto grrow uup

nnot ggoing tto happpen
withh a bllindfold

nott goinng ttoo happeen

It's the only way

looking somewhere else
I can't ever see ahead

I'm addicted to medicine
so much can harm me

there's nothing left to lose
I lost everything I found

I made a mistake
losing my mind

you were my star
you burned me off

I can't see a thing
you were my star

orbiting around me
I will never be free

so much medicine
will heal me

my mother was an alcoholic
drinking one more just to sleep
so I started to drink too
even if I didn't like the taste

I just wanted her to love me
to hold me tight
oh she was so broken
so I climbed inside her empty heart
tried to start a fire
but she left me dead and cold
in that hallow space

I went to waste
couldn't find someone to love me
I took all she had
all of her pain
I made it my own
in my little head
I believed if
she couldn't love me
at least she could hurt me
in the ugliest ways
maybe one day she'd realize
her worst mistakes

but I'm older now
she never takes the blame
I was never the victim
was I supposed to hate her
is it too late

I never once exploded
swallowed it down
that's why she likes me
because I put on my fake smile
tell her I'm okay
when in reality
I never processed a **** thing
stuck in my 12 year old mentality
frozen in that body

mother please love me
it hurts when you never put me first
I was your daughter
waiting my turn

I don't miss you
I don't miss you
I don't miss you

do I need you

do I even need you

I know you're not okay

I hate to see you going through all of this

but

I'm sorry

I don't miss you
I don't miss you

I don't ask about you
I don't think about you

truth is
I'm doing so much better
right now


I don't mind us slipping
further away

I hope you break free
I want to see you happy

I still love you

I just

don't miss you

In a strange room
Don't know me or you

Unknown walls
Furniture & all

Uncomfortable
Staring
And not talking

Because he took me
Somewhere
With someone
I do not know

In places where I do not
Know myself

when you became it all for me
I never took a glance back
what was I missing

keep your thoughts on me
there isn't anyone else

you've forgotten
everything I made you feel

crying out for help
the sun is half

I love you so much
I can't look at anyone the same

I'm sober
dreaming the pain away

half of the sun is up
the other half is yours

I just want you to ask for me
come back and see me

I love you
I'll never forget

trying to let the feelings fall away

I never looked back
never blinked an eye

now I'm regretting
our last goodbye

I love someone
who doesn't love me the same way

how many times
count

shut down
offline
where do I

my mind my mind lost

I know you'd buy me the whole world if you could
but you can't afford it

I'm stuck with you
miles away or face to face
you'll always haunt me
you act nice to get what you want

I can't forget you're all I had
really felt like I had no one

you were there
still you were no one

you didn't know how to care for me
how was I supposed to care about you

it's harder these days
we pretend
I didn't hear you say
all those things

you wanted to die
I wanted to **** myself

you loved a psychotic man
I'm scared of men coming close to me

what happened
did we make those things happen
did I watch it all happen

silent
you were always on the phone
I'd drink all alone

I wanted to cry
in the mornings when you were so depressed
you couldn't talk or move

I was so tired
of seeing you hate our home

I was hateful
we never had a home

I don't think I'll ever see you again
stop asking me

you messed me up in more ways than I can count

I'm not regretful
I'm not angry
anymore

I still love you
it's the worst part

it's the most painful

to love you
after all the **** we went through

you control me
manipulate me

I'll love you
like a fool

bleeding on the floor
it was your
it was my fault

I haven't seen you months
do you still hide the beer at the bottom of the fridge

how does it feel

is it lonely
is it quiet

so oblivious
people like you will never know

I'm constantly changing
now everyday I'm dreaming

You lay by the sun
so I won't see you leave
I can't believe
I'm really nothing

today I feel like a speck of dust
against all these people
who have luck

I just want to go home
wherever that is

I have to look at the sky sometimes
while evaa sings to me

I realize that these days are bigger than they seem

The sun is looking for someone
so lonely

I'm small
compare me to someone else
I never reach the far

Gazing at the sky
deep in my eyes

I'm small
these days
are smaller than I thought

It's almost the end of the month

I want to give you my happiness
My heart and the little love it contains
I want you to have my smile

Keep my joy
Save my youth

I'll give it all to you

I want you to have my eyes
my visions

My words
my stories

I need to give you a hug
please feel warm

If this is love

I'll give it to you all
- - -

I cried my eyes out for you too

I've only ever felt euphoria
in silence
alone

And I've been waiting for the right one
to speak with a voice
filled with serenity

you didn't even tell your real name
what a shame
I have to leave

crawling inside your bones
I have no where else to go

tear drops
on your hands

it's nice to see you're still alive
will you ever let me hold you

die alone
I won't die with you

thinking about confessing my sins
find a pure soul

I'll leave
if you tell me to go

there's nothing more
you only told me sad stories

let me read
when you were young and happy

I spent valentines day alone
you didn't say happy birthday till she said so

you didn't ask about my purple hair
I know you don't care

I've been thinking about you
spinning in my head
dizzy in a waltz

my dreams are all about loving you
then I wake up to loathe you

forcing my eyes open
cover the hole in my heart with a band aid

hurts more to know
you don't want to let me go
kills me to know you don't want me at all

come find me
I'll let you go
I can finish us off

I'm sorry I didn't spend time with you
the days by the lake we had a few

if the hope inside us hadn't died
all we needed
was the happiness missing

take out your guitar
I've got a song or two

there's not enough time
the endless sunset can follow us home

it never does
scared away
home was full of darkness

I want to go some place with you
I'll read a book
and hear you play all afternoon

our time together
long gone

so strange
we never knew
how fast the moment would pass

laying in the grass
staring into the water

let's stay there
a while longer

I see
Your wings fell off

Nothing I can't fix
My love

It's the morning
I have no dreams

I guess you're stuck with me

I'm never going to feel guilty

The day I do
I'll bleed

You made me cry
Cold tears
I don't know how

The voice in my head
Says you're mean
It's probably just me

I've been thinking what I need

Nothing matters
Nor do I

Only the sun
And the sky
The earth
The stars
And life

We don't matter
It's us against us
No ever wins
A game with no ending

I'll be sticking with
Me

It's morning I should sleep

can I tell you
llıʍ I

all the good
ɓuoɹʍ os ǝɹ,noʎ

you try
ǝıl sʎɐʍlɐ noʎ

I can go on
ɓuol ɹoɟ ʇou

we're so close
uıɐɓɐ sǝʌlǝsɹno ɓuıɔuɐʇsıp

Sad girl
no control
why my dreams don't come true

I'm such a fake

what a waste

pretending to be your best friend

why am I so hateful

I hate seeing you happy

I love eating your sadness away

makes my day

why are you never happy for me

you must hate me too

are we spinning this web of lies together

I can't even try to care for you

I tried to

I'm a liar

I told you so

the mask I wear is perfectly created

I can't take it off

maybe next time you want to leave

I hope you do

cheering for your downfall

I'm your bad luck charm

You created a beautiful world
a flawless nature
a flawless earth

You created creatures full of mistakes
you created painful beings

I'm envious of the light
you created so ethereal

why am I not beautiful
like the ocean

you created such a perfect ground
humans tear apart

I'm disappointed you let such a celestial planet
go to waste

She was craving a yellow cake
   To fill her up with happiness

I think I clench my teeth
when I'm half asleep

does it always hurt this much
when you leave somebody

I hope
I'm loveable

I'm scared I'll forever
eat my breakfast, lunch, dinner alone

if I stretch both of my arms
I cover my entire bed
a spot no one ever lays

I always have a song stuck in my head
in the morning
at five thirty

I don't want to be happy alone
laughing all by myself

I'll love again
days I'll open my heart

When the cold air starts to come out

I feel like I'm not around

Where does the wind go
After it dies

I'm not who I want to be

I act a way I shouldn't

People see me so differently

I don't know who I want to be anymore

When the lights turn off

I feel so lost

When I wake up early

I feel so calm

I am not who I want to be

Is there only one life
to live

Time will never wait for me

I was hoping
it'd stay

don't fade away
can I do it again

she painted her nails red
she didn't have red lipstick

Wish you were gone
wish I didn't remember you at all
curious what you're thinking about right now
if today isn't so great
tomorrow will be a big waste
if you ruin the mood
all you have to do is look at the moon
watch the sunset
go stargazing
life isn't all about
the past
even though I want to go back
if I were asked to pick one day
to live again
there's no certain decision
I would stay in the present

now that spring is gone
where is winter

I don't  like this summer
please don't take away the flowers

I'll pick up a pen
write on these empty pages

I'll behave
I'll love my mother

I want the rain
these sunny days
are burning away my brain

memories
are disappearing

I don't remember my friends

the walls are closing in
I don't want to lose myself

in this sun

this sun
blinding away
my hope

She says
she feels a burst of emotions
within colors and shapes

Am I blind
did I not hear her words right

I feel like I'm from another planet

She reads art

I told her I felt a fire inside me
within the words and their meanings

Is she blind
did she not hear me right

I feel like she's from another planet

The way art transcends into our souls differently
is fascinating

do you miss me too
I can't sleep here / I'll leave soon
do you want me to

I'm a bit dangerous when I smile
you always look away when I say the truth

thinking I'm not talking about you

I'm feeling upside down

whispering
the young are loved

I'm a little lonely
I'm feeling lovely

playing mind games
you smoke and drink
I follow your footsteps

having a little fun

whispering
the young are loved

now you love me so much
send me hugs and kisses

I can't hear the rainfall
my eyes are getting smaller

I'm feeling so young

you make me 21

following your steps
we only fall deeper

this darkness never ends
holding hands

send me hugs and kisses
there's magic in your kind of fun
a spell I'm under

when I fall back into reality
I'm reminded it's a curse

The thunder was slowly
And the lightning constant
The rain seemed angry
Or maybe the skies clouds
Were depressed
All i could tell was that
They were crying hard

I'm sorry for what I said
I never called
you say this
and I that
so what will it be
can we still talk

I'm your world
you are my sun
I don't look out for you
I don't want to see you
I like the way you shine
I love the way your warm me up
I never want to see you
I keep you away

I'm sorry
I never answer your calls
I've become distant
trust issues
and insecurities
have torn me up
I can't look into
anyone's eyes
speak the truth

I'm your world
you're the moon
you're the wind
I can't see you

no
I'm wrong
I'm the moon
I'm the clouds
I'm the sun
I'm the wind
that passes by
I vanish
I'm so transparent
I've disappeared

can you even see me
for who I am

or have I become someone else

when I leave

will you search the universe for me

I'm your world
now you are mine

silent star

smile for the liars

gun to my head
I was told to swallow down my emotions

crying for all the robots who will never love me back

I am the dying sun
I am nothing and everyone loves me

I write sequels
skipping the introductions

I've lived
a million lifetimes

with a melting curiosity
what is life

I lost myself
when
I loved you

jumped into a black hole
to love you more

everything hurts

I hope no one finds out

You don't care about me
That's okay
Because the day I stop
You'll wish you did

The cold wind hit my face
Like ice in rain

The sun could no longer
Keep me warm

I fought to run
Though no one really saw

If I were to Fall
I wouldn't dare hold on

all the songs I dedicated to you
don't mean anything

to me

I pictured the best of you
then I burned it to ashes

you'll never be who I want you to be

don't tell me we have a chance
you're lying to yourself

I can see the truth
it's right in front of me

I want to look away

I hate it

you have nothing to lose
so you'll have me

I mean nothing to you

Shining summertime
A heavy, living cloud swims
into the flower

breathing demons
angel cutting
humans take advantage of God

I hope you know all
that I don't at all anymore
I think it's for sure

ɪ'ᴍ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ɢᴏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ

ᴛᴇᴍᴘᴏʀᴀʀʏ

ʟᴀꜱᴛ ʀᴀɪɴʏ ᴅᴀʏꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴍᴀʏ
ᴍᴇꜱꜱʏ ʙᴇᴅ
ꜱʟᴇᴇᴘʏ ᴇʏᴇꜱ
ɪ ꜰᴇʟʟ ᴄᴏᴍꜰᴏʀᴛᴀʙʟᴇ ɪɴ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴇᴍʙʀᴀᴄᴇ

ᴅɪᴅɴ'ᴛ ʟᴀꜱᴛ ʟᴏɴɢ
ɪ ʟᴇꜰᴛ
ɪ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ꜱᴛᴀʏ
ᴡᴏɴᴅᴇʀ ɪꜰ ɪ ᴅɪᴅ
ᴄʟᴏꜱᴇʀ ᴀɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏꜱᴇʀ

ɪ ᴡɪꜱʜ ɪ ʜᴇʟᴅ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄʟᴏꜱᴇʀ

ꜰᴀʀ ᴀᴡᴀʏ

ɪ'ᴍ ᴇʀᴀꜱɪɴɢ ᴏᴜʀ ᴍᴇᴍᴏʀɪᴇꜱ

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