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28.3k · Jun 2018
where is my selflove
eileen Jun 2018
I'm falling out of
I'm trying to find beauty
in my reflection

seems so hard these days
want to love myself again
my one true love
Haiku
15.1k · Nov 2018
Crimson nightsky
eileen Nov 2018
sky's so cold
reminds me of her
she always blew me a cold kiss

eating ice cream when it's zero degrees

ice queen
she covers the sky
with an independent gloom

I'm waiting on the snow
she gives the best shows
wearing glittery shoes

eerie feeling
you aren't here with me
I almost felt you beside me

I need to let her go
move on

let the sky fall
14.7k · Dec 2018
Goodnight Light
eileen Dec 2018
feeling
super super super
Sᵤᵢcᵢdₐl

don't tell my friends
or my family

It's getting too hot in this clown suit

give me a bottle of sunshine
I'm overdosing

no one needs to care for me
don't get mad

we can be friends
I won't spill my secrets

I'm feeling
super super super
▌│█║s̶u̶i̶c̶i̶d̶a̶l̶ █│▌

can I take off the mask
I can't look ahead

nose bleeding
I love taking a leap
a shot of hope

everything
in my life
is a metaphor

who wrote this sad story
where's my sad ending


ᵒᵘᵗ ᶠᵒʳ ᵃⁿ ᵃᵈᵛᵉⁿᵗᵘʳᵉ
ᴵ'ˡˡ ᵈⁱᵉ ˡᵃᵗᵉʳ

ᵇʳᵒᵏᵉⁿ ˢᶜʳᵉᵉⁿ
ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵘⁿ ⁱˢ ᵒⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ᵒᵖᵖᵒˢⁱᵗᵉ ˢⁱᵈᵉ ᵒᶠ ᵐᵉ
ˢʰᵉ'ˢ ᵇᵉⁱⁿᵍ ᵐᵉᵃⁿ
ˢˡᵉᵉᵖⁱⁿᵍ ᵒⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ᶜᵒᵘᶜʰ
ⁿᵒ ᵒⁿᵉ ⁱˢ ᵃʳᵒᵘⁿᵈ
ˡᵒⁿᵉˡʸ ᵃᶠᵗᵉʳⁿᵒᵒⁿˢ
ᵃ ᵇʳᵃᵛᵉ ᶠʳⁱᵉⁿᵈ
ˡⁱᵉˢ
ⁱᵗ'ˢ ᵃˡʷᵃʸˢ ᵗʰᵉ ˡⁱᵉˢ

ᵗʰᵉʳᵉ ʷᵃˢⁿ'ᵗ ᵃⁿʸ
ˡᵃᵘᵍʰⁱⁿᵍ
ᵇᵒⁿᵈⁱⁿᵍ
ˡᵒᵛⁱⁿᵍ

ᵈᵃʳᵏ ᵇⁱʳᵗʰᵈᵃʸ
ʷᵉᵉᵏˢ ᵒᶠ ʷⁱˢʰⁱⁿᵍ
ᶠᵒʳ ᵈᵉᵃᵗʰ
ᶜᵒᵐᵉ ᵗᵒ ᵃⁿ ᵉⁿᵈ
ᴵ'ˡˡ ˡᵉᵃᵛᵉ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵇᵉᵈʳᵒᵒᵐ ⁿᵒʷ

I'm hurting
my pain is loud
5.5k · Oct 2019
Hello Poetry: the funeral
eileen Oct 2019
Is poetry dead
took its last breath
eating up all it's words
I'm feeling so hurt
poetry is dead
we mourned for days
sounds of sobs heard around the world

we slept in silence
lights on

poetry is dead
hello poetry welcome back to the internet
5.5k · Aug 2018
soap, bubbles, hands
eileen Aug 2018
worthless

I should hurt less

I'm still loving you
I'm putting stars in my eyes
hearts in my mouth

I'd love to eat you out
but you keep dancing around

I'm no toy to play around with
stop putting me away

we should make out
kiss and don't tell

we should go out
If no one is around

come lay down

my heart feels like a million bubbles exploding
every time I hear your voice

bubble baths in your bathtub
what do you think

should I hold your hand
holding my breath
4.1k · Dec 2018
Goodnight Moon
eileen Dec 2018
ⁱ ᵐⁱˢˢ ʸᵒᵘ
ⁱ ᵐⁱˢˢ ʸᵒᵘ
ᵗᵒᵒ

ᴵ'ᵛᵉ ⁿᵒᵗ ˡᵉᵃʳⁿᵉᵈ ᵃⁿʸᵗʰⁱⁿᵍ ⁿᵉʷ
ᶜᵒᵐᵉ
ˡᵒᵒᵏ
ᵃⁿᵈ ˢᵉᵉ

ⁱᵗ'ˢ ⁿᵒᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵃᵐᵉ
ʷⁱᵗʰᵒᵘᵗ
ʸᵒᵘ

ʸᵒᵘ ˡᵉᶠᵗ ᵃⁿ ᵉᵐᵖᵗʸ
ᵖʳᵉˢᵉⁿᶜᵉ

ᵗᵉᵃᶜʰ ᵐᵉ ʰᵒʷ ᵗᵒ ᵈʳᵃʷ
ᴵ ʰᵃᵛᵉ ⁿᵒᵗ ˡᵉᵃʳⁿᵉᵈ

ᴵ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ʷᵃⁿᵗ ᵗᵒ ᶠⁱⁿⁱˢʰ
ᵗʰᵉ ʸᵉᵃʳ ʷⁱᵗʰᵒᵘᵗ ʸᵒᵘ

ʷⁱˡˡ ᴵ ᵐᵃᵏᵉ ⁱᵗ
ᵗⁱˡˡ ˢᵖʳⁱⁿᵍ

ʷⁱˡˡ ᴵ ˢᵉᵉ ᵗʰᵉ ᵗʳᵉᵉ ᵇˡᵒᵒᵐ

I only look forward to seeing the man on the moon
He is
more than a cold December day
He is
more than the 18th
3.3k · Nov 2018
Como sea /
eileen Nov 2018
Te amo
Pero no te puedo decir
Te quiero mucho
10 palabras
10W
3.3k · Oct 2018
Lilith ♛
eileen Oct 2018
Greet your mother
mother of lies
ruler of the world

I the evil one
deceive me
there's no noise
I'm wearing white
I camouflage myself
among saints

I've fed myself poison  
my sisters and brothers
don't follow me

I've been distant
I'm the cause
the problem
I'm the wicked one

feeling
like a star
full of sin

my blood reeks
of lies

love me
my angel of light
2.8k · Sep 2018
It's You
eileen Sep 2018
I don't want your money
I want your good morning
and goodnight

please don't forget me
the memories
are fading

give me your worst
give me your best

give me a little love from you

I want your rain
your everything

a little love from you

give me your fire
your sorrow

the memories
aren't new

the days I spent my life with you

I'll always remember that good side of you
2.8k · Sep 2018
A Plant
eileen Sep 2018
You're the storm I love
You're my thunder and lightning
You left and I grew
HAIKU
2.7k · Jan 2019
Here's your knife back
eileen Jan 2019
Remember when I cut my hands
and wrists
and you told the world
behind my back


I'll remember
when you smoked
did drugs
skipped class
messaged a stranger back

Tell the world
Behind your back

You stabbed me
caught by surprise

I cleaned the knife
ready to get you back

I'm not all about revenge
this is only what you deserve

I need help
You need help

We're never going to help ourselves

Better tell someone
it only hurts more
this way
2.6k · Aug 2018
Im sleepy please leave
eileen Aug 2018
All this
Talk
Talk
Talk

No one is any better

No one ever changes

I'm hoping for a better life
I hope to not follow their footsteps

Talk
Talk
More talk

I'm so tired
My ears might explode

I'm not sure how much I can take
before I let it all out
eileen Sep 2018
Faces turned to walls

I was talking to the sky
my whole childhood
instead of my mom

I always hugged the moon goodnight
because my father
was never home at night

Walls hear all of the secrets
I slept without a worry
days seem so blurry

Where I would lay in bed
without a thought in my mind

I looked up to trees
and jumped so high
I couldn't breathe

Life seems smaller now
In ways
I can't remember
What it is to be young

My poor veins
carry my blood
so slowly

I'll soon be turned into a wall
2.5k · Aug 2018
Comets
eileen Aug 2018
There are meteoroids falling into my head
Meteors coming into the sky of my mind

I have no where to go

There's a voice
that whispers sad things
when I'm happy

I'm soft when you're around
then you leave me alone
with a stranger's voice

I'm losing myself
I love the idea of dying soon

There is a shooting star I see in a dream

A fire in the sky

I'm not afraid
of dying with a smile

Finally the voice
will explode
into bits of a meteorite
2.1k · Oct 2018
soft shock
eileen Oct 2018
I see a lovely sunset
from the opposite side
of the sky
hidden in trees
covered in green
wrapped around orange hues and in sky blue
now fading into
pink
soft shocks
to my heart
I know
I'll find that room
that state of mind
the place where my heart comes together

it's fading out
the dead moon
is rising
my ghost
is crying

a beautiful sunset
is only beautiful
when you're
feeling blue
1.9k · Aug 2018
unknown guest
eileen Aug 2018
Keep on
running

Spare me your love
I don't want your broken heart

One day you'll ask for my help
I'll treat you like a stranger

I never understand you

Spare me your time

You're a stranger
I never liked the way you made me feel

Keep quiet
I can't fight you

You're a lightning bolt
waiting to strike
1.9k · Jul 2021
pollen
eileen Jul 2021
i woke up sad
you were in my dreams again

it's getting worse
you're everywhere i go

a face i don't know
i recognize

as far as you know
i don't care about you anymore

i can't let you know
it hurts me even more

to see us happy
in a place that's not real
1.8k · Sep 2018
burning paper
eileen Sep 2018
I wrote a poem
of a poem
about a poem

I wrote you a poem
inspired by a poem
of another poem

you'll never read it

It's catching fire
the ashes are lost

I spent an hour
writing you a letter

where I wrote you a poem

you'll never speak of it

it's hidden in a drawer
sealed

catching fire

you'll never see it

To
you

From
Me
1.8k · Nov 2018
New Moon November
eileen Nov 2018
she's looking for me
the afternoon fell away
waiting for the Milkyway

I'll be honest now
don't look away, say nothing
I'll take off my skin

I want to feel real
no ending or beginning
let me feel something

I might not come back
there's a meteor shower
off to catch a star
haiku
1.7k · Oct 2018
♖ Saint Michael
eileen Oct 2018
sacrifices
let's pray
you can't call an angel
like you summon a demon
choose your side wisely
there's always a bargain
he likes gold coins
broken souls

did you ever believe
you had a guardian angel?

They wouldn't care for such a filthy being

It's mean
how
emerald leaves turn into gold


today answers will be whispered
inside a ring of fire
1.6k · Sep 2018
Purple carnations
eileen Sep 2018
I can't calculate your next response

You're boring me to death

never surprised to see me
well it seems you never see me at all

trying to give you my heart
not my soul

I know how to speak
I can't read love

I only know how to write it

flowers in a crystal vase

I'm filling up empty holes

I'm throwing away all of my secrets

he says
don't ask me for favors

It's impossible to ever tell him

I don't want to be honest

I don't know how to be

I'm tired of living traumatized
of it all

I'm trying to give you
my heart

waiting for your response
1.5k · May 2019
no thank you
eileen May 2019
do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it
do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it


Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I
Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I
Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I                                       Do I Do I Do I

Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I

tell me

Do I deserve anything

No
No
No
No
No
No
No
No
No
No

I don't
1.5k · Nov 2020
abstract
eileen Nov 2020
seventeen
it was fun
till it wasn't

seventeen
haunts me

seventeen
hates me

seventeen
isn't real

seventeen
was ugly

seventeen
don't leave

seventeen
I never want to see you again

seventeen
I'll do it all again

seventeen
you're the worst

seventeen
I love you
eileen Jan 2019
Fᴀʟʟɪɴɢ
Fᴀʟʟ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ
Fᴇᴇʟ ʟᴏsᴛ ʟɪfᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜɪɴ ᴍᴇ

ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴡᴏʀʀʏ
ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ sᴛʀᴇss

ʟᴏsᴇ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʜᴇᴀᴅ

ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ᴏff ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴇʏᴇsꜱ
ᴄʟᴏsᴇ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴇᴀʀsꜱ

ɪ'ᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ʀᴇᴀʟ

ɪ'ᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ʀᴇᴀʟ

ɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ ɪɴᴛᴇʀɴᴇᴛ
ʀᴇᴀʟɪᴛʏ
ɪ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴋɴᴏᴡ

ᴛʜᴇ ɪɴᴛᴇʀɴᴇᴛ ʜᴜɢsꜱ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ꜱsʟᴇᴇᴘ
ᴋɪllᴇd ᴍᴇ ɢᴏᴏᴅ ᴍᴏʀɴɪɴɢ

paradise

here I cannot cry

I can hear you
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I can't hear myself

there are no flaws
ɪɴ ᴍʏ ᴄᴏᴅᴇ
Can be read reversed too
1.4k · Feb 2019
12 o' clock
eileen Feb 2019
I still wonder of orion's belt
I still wish to see the moon
I still love parts of life

I may never live the best version of myself

I still want to try
1.4k · Jan 2019
80s
eileen Jan 2019
80s
memory lane
hearing the cure
while we drive away
friday
I'm so in love
the way the wind
blows through your hair
I want to live this day again
down the road
let's go home
where we wear our crowns
a day without a frown
never do I look down

there's no satisfaction
I've got so and so distractions
memory lane
such a happy time
when we had our house
in the middle of our street
1.4k · Mar 2019
disturbing
eileen Mar 2019
you said you fell in love
I said that's wrong

You said you're looking to stay
while I'm making you go away

you want emotions and time
I want nothing and emptiness

you're holding on
I'm fallen

you write about them in your diary
I'm done talking to them

please you're hurting yourself being too open
please let go
I'm afraid

no more
I'm cutting off my ears
I want no more

have you not felt disappointment before

let it go

I don't want to hear from you anymore
1.4k · Jul 2018
Its raining in a movie
eileen Jul 2018
Oh how I miss the rain
in this pouring sunlight
that heats up my bed

I miss the way it sounds
1.3k · Feb 2018
let down // haiku
eileen Feb 2018
Rain drip drop can't stop
I want thunder and lightning
Nothing can stop me

Try again flowers red vase
I never have a happy face
Thank you anyways thanks

I see no rain ugh
look another useless day
lost mind staying sane
HAIKU
1.3k · Sep 2018
september \
eileen Sep 2018
I might go to sleep
there's a rainy week ahead
I'm falling in sleep
haiku
1.3k · Nov 2018
Epiphany
eileen Nov 2018
Love is the rain
Love is a sunset
Love is in all nature

Love is pain
Tears washed away
dried up clean
on my face

You must find
and feel true love within yourself

To feel
true love with someone else
1.3k · Feb 2022
blue valentine
eileen Feb 2022
we're all so worthless
you know it

you're everchanging
not so everlasting

throwing cigarettes on your bedroom floor
you're so numb you can't feel the cold

where's the ceiling
always falling to the floor

there's just something
special about you

can't figure it out
I get chills

I want to look like you
move like you do

visions and side effects
I know you will break my heart first
but I can break it twice
1.3k · Jan 2019
consequences
eileen Jan 2019
Saw it coming
months away
in my sleep
in my dreams
an afternoon
midnight silence
I saw it coming
miles away
heard it in the wind
water screamed
to me
I saw it coming
in a tree
in a cloud
in my frown
my eyes screamed at me
I failed
I failed
I failed
do you want to know more about me now
I'm not perfect
do you want to talk to me now
I saw it coming
I just didn't want you to see it
I saw it coming
I failed
I knew every morning
this was coming
I didn't care
I still kept going

Now that I've failed
everyone screams at me
everyone looks at me
everyone asks for me
now that I've failed
everyone wants to scare me
I'm weak
I'm not perfect
I'm sorry I took off my mask
when you least expect it

you must hate me now
I should blame myself
////////  a little they don't know
kills my soul  ///////
1.2k · Sep 2018
Head in the ceiling fan
eileen Sep 2018
I see things from the corner of my eye
I've never told anyone that

shadows
walk
back and forth
on my front porch

a man
a lost woman

the monster under my bed
now lies beside me

when you asked me an important question
I lied to you

be happy
it wasn't to your face

camouflaged in the dark
If I see things
I should be their friend

Your God blessed me with no sound

I'll never hear the shadows
walk around me
1.2k · May 2019
picked a flower / it died
eileen May 2019
when I was young
I had big eyes
full of truth
full of youth
full of dreams

brown like the soil a flower grows

eyes that saw the
infinite sky
stars swam inside
carried sunshine

Where's the love
Where's the color
Where's the vision

I've always listened

I can't see
what you're trying to show me

when I was young
I saw the world

now my eyes are small
I don't believe anymore
1.2k · Sep 2018
Harvest Moon
eileen Sep 2018
recently the daylight
lately the sunlight has a
feeling of autumn
Haiku
1.2k · Sep 2018
Euphoria \
eileen Sep 2018
A feeling so good
All I see is white and stars
let me breathe you in
haiku
eileen Dec 2018
plant some flowers
on my neck
watch them die
and make more again

Water me down
watch me grow
and blossom

Tear off my petals
pick at the thorns

Caress my leaves
trace the craved lines
into my skin

build me up strong
tear me back down
I was pulled from the ground
only loved for my beauty and liveliness

When I begin to wither
when I begin to wilt
my roots are rotting
I'm yellow with death
pull me apart from the weeds

I dream of pretty bones
and comfy coffins

I rest in peace unloved
killed by roses
1.1k · Nov 2018
November Wind
eileen Nov 2018
sitting on a used bed
your presence disappeared into the pillow sheets

opened a journal
like a treasure map

running around
trying to get me back

hiding inside a box
without a lock

almost died
I cried
bled
felt the end of the world

everyone knows me
that's not the truth

pages
I spilled myself on

under a lake

asking myself
why does my heart
feel so heavy

can't hold a pen

I hear odd sounds
as if I lived underwater

presents
a book filled with empty pages
standing in front of me

I should know

I'm running away
from myself

I know myself
that's not the truth

////
don't come looking around for someone who doesn't exist
don't go loving someone who doesn't feel the same
\\
1000+ poems published, 600 hidden, countless drafts
Always grateful for this site
1.1k · Nov 2018
Angels bow
eileen Nov 2018
Cutting my head off
I want my life to turn off
_________

Off with his head
All I ever wished is for his silence
His silent death
1.1k · Mar 2019
longer
eileen Mar 2019
I'm climbing trees
I'm losing life

I'm petrified of becoming the person I hate

Inside
And
Outside

I asked for rain
I have it all
I left everyone
I never wanted to be left alone

Still the night doesn't seem too forgiving

Everything I've done this week
haunts me

I've done nothing
1.1k · Jul 2018
papercuts
eileen Jul 2018
it's a white dream
you ever loving me

your empty body
scares me

I don't understand the feeling

I've studied your eyes for so long
never did I find an ounce of love

I'll forever be your doll
I break and fall
when you throw me to the floor

I listen to whatever you have to say
and you brag to all your friends

I read your eyes
to try and find
I swim through your lies
deep dark nights

/ //
when I realized you didn't love me

a weight from my heart was lifted
1.1k · Jul 2021
in your sleep
eileen Jul 2021
if I'm not in your sweet dreams
I hope you find me in your nightmares instead
1.1k · Jul 2018
His green eyes don't shine
eileen Jul 2018
You want a little star
you want me to disappear

I never figured you out

What is it that you love

Never wake up late
goes to work

Do you dream

You want a flower
to make a fire

I let you pick me every time

Do you believe in love
When did your heart die

Were you ever happy

I don't want to be disrespectful

I think you're the devil
eileen Nov 2018
Always calling me out

I hurt you
I'm the one to blame

I carry the shame
You play the victim
it doesn't make sense

You're hurt
You're sad

It doesn't matter to me
as it did back
when we were tangled up

Our love felt like a knot
I've only tried to cut you out

Before you call me out

I'm hurting too
I wish I could go and see you
for a little while
Just a day

I carry the shame
I'm the one to blame

I'm guilty

I'm no saint

I carry this infinite darkness inside
I'll let it spill
just cut my head off
let me think silently
1.0k · Dec 2017
Sun & Moon
eileen Dec 2017
Your back
Aganist my back

Your hands are waiting
To clasp mine

Light eyes meeting mine

They say you're the stars
All you do is burn my heart
Trying to come inside

Multiple times
I said stop

Every time
I'm out
You're already waiting for me

I'm in distress
Never get a moment alone

You hear every word I say

They say you're sunshine
But you keeping burning up my skin

Am I doing the same
Does your heart go insane
Whenever I'm around

Do you feel dizzy
At the sound of my voice

You're making a fire
I'm trying to put it out
eileen Nov 2018
drinking
water
tea
milk
liquor

lips dry
fingernails
bad conditions
skin is rotting

where do I find such desire
to take care of myself

to love me

skin
on fire

I can't listen
I can hear nothing

windows rattling

I'm afraid one speck of skin
torn off
will tear me apart
960 · Feb 2019
valentines day death
eileen Feb 2019
no es tarde
lleno de amor
gracias por tu amor
nunca es demasiado tarde
gracias por tus palabras
lleno de amor
la noche te espera
la luna te besa para dormir
tus corazones
tu amor
se queda dentro del sol
nos vemos en la mañana
Ya es tarde
la luna te besa para dormir
un sueño sano
esperamos la mañana
rip marie
958 · Jan 2021
dead to me
eileen Jan 2021
I think you died
you forgot to tell me

no invitation to the burial or the funeral
why didn't you tell me

was it an accident
tell me

why did you leave me so easily
for a boy who will only give you heartbreak

my friend died
she said I can't talk to you anymore
haven't heard from her in months

happy new year
you threw away our good friendship like a piece of paper

I'll visit your grave one day
press all your flowers and crush the ashes into the wind

you're dead to me
I know you're in trouble
only you can save yourself now
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