spending all my days at home

I forgot constellations exist

why'd you leave

I can feel myself go dark

I think I want to be alone

see you in my dreams

wiped away my tears

why am I always sad when someone leaves me

they should be crying

not me

you didn't even tell your real name
what a shame
I have to leave

crawling inside your bones
I have no where else to go

tear drops
on your hands

it's nice to see you're still alive
will you ever let me hold you

die alone
I won't die with you

thinking about confessing my sins
find a pure soul

I'll leave
if you tell me to go

there's nothing more
you only told me sad stories

let me read
when you were young and happy

at the end of the day
you don't deserve me
I don't deserve him

you're gone
not even two months have passed

will you really disappear
just like everyone else

I should stop loving
I should stop falling
for boys like you

I can't do this again

I still want to do all the things we said

don't you go
without saying goodbye

you're dying
and this love inside me is blossoming

we do not write poetry
we write mirrors
which are held up
to curious faces
who read
looking for their
own reflections

didn't realize those sounds we're coming out of my mouth
I found a tissue stained with blood
I don't remember bleeding
you asked me an innocent question
why am I playing out a fantasy
I don't know how to make myself disappear
filled with so much fear
you won't miss me
you will forget me
cover my eyes
you're an angel dear
don't pretend to be anything different
I can see your wings
unknown blood
looking deep into the words you said
I'm so confused
I'll be thinking about you on the drive back home
I'll be thinking of you
when I see the deep waters
I'll be thinking of you
you you
you won't know

I want to talk to you
while you're at work
I want to talk to you
when no one is around
and we're all alone
so I can have you to myself
I'm sorry I don't like sharing
when someone steals your attention
I fade away

I don't want to ask a serious question
I'm scared of the answer
we can just laugh it off
I'll sit back and
overthink about it
thinking about it
over and over

letting you have your space
I don't want to feel like a cage
what if you run away
I don't think I'll find you again

silly and cliché
I don't want to be your friend
I want to kiss your neck

I opened the windows
my feelings running free
you will never see