Your boyfriend is a lucky man
But I am the lucky one
I get to wake up knowing I have a sweet caring boy
That loves me
Who's gentle when he kisses me
Who's big hands grab me by my waist and sit me on his lap
Kiss me and love me
Hold me and never let me go
I am so lucky I get to see your beautiful smile every morning
You tell me every night goodnight, and I love you
Being with you is like winning the lottery
You are so genuine with everything you speak
Or do
You make me feel special
In a way, I've wanted to feel my whole life
When you kiss me, it feels like fireworks and butterflies
I hope that you do too.
I know what we have is not one-sided
I know you're hesitant when it comes to me
I know you don't want to get hurt
But you're trying, and I see it with every call and every text
I love everything you do
I'm such a lucky woman because you love me just like I love you.

I have alot of favorite things
Like the perks of being a wallflower the book
Like scott pilgrim vs the world a severly underrated movie
And in minecraft when i find bees and decorate their tree with flowers
I like the word wholesome
I like the feeling you get after you finally sneeze after 30 mins
I like the smell of wet soil
My favorite thing is views
My favorite things to see
Is when the sun came up after a warm night in your long limbs
The way you smile that melted my frozen heart
Your smile is like sunshine its my favorite ******* view
And sir it tremendously under appreciated

There is alot of things i dont know
Like how to spell synonym
How to change a spark plug
How i feel about you
And how you feel about me

Ive change alot since December
Been through alot since December
And you really dont even know any of that
Even though you were sorta apart of it
In the fall and winter i was deeply invested in you
I hurt myself thinking too much about you

Five months passed since we last talked
And i dont know why we talked again
I dont know why i responded to you
I think there will alway be a miniscule part of me
That likes you
Theres a reason i get nervous when we talk
Why when i see your snapchat name show up at the top of my phone screen
I get so happy
But when i think about it
I feel like throwing up
Like i dont want to feel this way
Just the thought of it makes me sick  
And i think it because im not sure how i really feel cause i dont know how you really feel
Part of me scared to ask
Part of me knows the answer
Part of me get a touch sad
All of me gets disappointed in myself

This one hurt
More than I thought
I think because you played me so well
You really had me feeling like you could be the one
The one that deserved to feel my love
I even wrote you a poem explaining how one day
I could feel about the gaps in your teeth that I find adorable
Or the height of your stance
That was slightly intimidating but endearing
The way that you kissed me
On My forehead
On my right thigh
And on my mouth
We could have been extraordinary
We were a bull and a ******
A Taurus and a Virgo
A girl and a boy
We talked about tattoos and how we wanted the same ones
We debated soul eater and stars
We quizzed eachother on one direction and Canadian rock bands
I went home and watched videos about how compatible we are
I was invested in you
And you said all the right things to make me believe you were invested in me
I told my bestfriend, cousin, and closes friends about you
How you are sweet, handsome, goofy, and everything I had been searching for
But i guess I spoke to soon
I fell way to soon
I cried way too soon
And I'm done
Just on time.

You want space
Or time
That what he said
So I gave him space and time
He took that time and space
And found someone else
I never know what do when someone ask for space from me
How long to wait
Before I accept the hint
If during this time its worth only speaking to you
Only thinking of you
And only dreaming of you
Cause it been only a day and I've cried enough tears to drown myself in a tub
I slept enough hours to call it a coma
And I've been out my room twice all day
I keep thinking of the last time we hugged is it going to be the last time I see your perfect face
If the last time I spent the night Is the last time i'll be able to kiss you
And that night was perfect to me
I was just so happy to be there with you
We drank and watched tangled
We smoked ****
I remember how good you look when smoke comes out your mouth
You taught me how to play pool and let me win twice
Then you let me fall asleep in your arms and sleep past 6
You are absolutely perfect to me
In everyway
I hope we can do that again
I hope we can kiss again
I hope you wont forget about the way i feel about you with all this space
Goodnight my love

I loved you
Enough to let you repeatedly break my heart
To push me away and ignore my cries
To treat me like I mean nothing
After all the time we spent lying in your dormitory watching movies on my tablet or your phone
When youd dance on your cold tile floor
While making pasta
Knock three times on the bathroom door
To make sure you werent walking in on your neighbor pooping again
The walk you do to the mirror every morning to appreciate your own beauty
The hours we spent making out
On your bathroom counter
On your bed
In my dreams
Such significant moments that we shared were I'd get so sad to leave
The time we ordered $60 worth of dominoes and binged aytipical
We always talked about going to the planetarium in alamogordo
Taking trips to Santa fe
We even talked about having children
And getting married
But we always stayed on base
And I loved you
Oh I love you
I love you
I
Love
You
Enough To do it all over again