Isn't it funny how big this world is
But how small it can be

I trusted you
And you showed me off
To your friends
As they laughed at me
I told my friends despite their remarks
That you were my everything
You braged about my body as if I were
A trophy
A simple object
You played me
And I was too stupid to know
You didn't care about me
Yet I was giving you every part of me
I did things for you
I wouldn't for any other
But you took my trust and abused it
Now when you look at me
I feel ashamed
**And now you win

Never again will
I love you as much
As I did before because
You broke my heart
And it's been hard
Putting it back

My smile no longer lights up a room
It no longer shines as bright as stars

I hate                          
                                        
when you

say you                          
                                      
love me

and don't                          
                                      
mean it

I've always had a love for you
Deep inside me I've always loved
Something about you
Was it your smile?
Your beautiful eyes?
Maybe it was that wonderful personality
Either way it made me fall in love
And boy did I fall hard.

Some poets say "My poems are just poems."
"It isn't like it's really how I feel."
But the pain has had to come **from somewhere

I cry out for you
For when I'm lost
For when life brings its trouble
For when I cant continue
For when I feel hopeless
For when my heart seeks you
I cry out for you

I run from my fears
As they chase me
At one point in this
Im trapped in a one way street
Forced to face what brings me to shame
Im afraid of my own fears
Im afraid of loving and losing
Im afraid of pain
Im afraid of silence
Im afraid of darkness
**Im afraid of being afraid

I've come a long way because of you
And all though im succeding without you the thought of
Wanting you to see me be better, happier is whats keeping me going
I am no longer with you but my heart still is
It calls for you in the lonely hours when i lay in bed
It calls for you in the stressful days when i wish you were with me
It calls for you when i know i can do better
Although i am no longer with you my heart is

It was a hot summer day
And as we brushed pass eachother
I couldn't help but think
I wish he were mine
That way I could show you off
Tell the world I'm in love
Tell everyone I found the one

And that day you approach me
With all kinds of silly things
We exchanged numbers
And what a fool was I
Because I wasn't ready for love
Turns out love isn't as
Kind, Loving, and Gentle
As I thought it would be

Sometimes i wonder what it will be to love again
Because theres times i dont think i can
My heart no longer loves but instead hurts and longs
My heart cries for the feeling i had once before
It yells in search of the lost love
And if its never found
My heart will wait

Actions speak louder than words
When they pushed you
You kept a straight face
When they made faces
You laughed
When they pointed
You smiled
But when they said
"No one likes you"
You were mad
When they said
"Your ugly"
You became insecure
When they called you names
You cried
Why?
Because those words were starting to sound
A lot louder than their actions