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MsMercedes Jun 2014
Here I sit in tears
Here I live with regret
Why did I do it ?
Was it worth it ?
Maybe Yes
Maybe No
Either way **nothing can change the past
MsMercedes May 2014
I put up with your lies
Your *******
Your abuse
Your criticism
Your stupid stories
Your hurtful words
But thank you because now
I know what not to look for
To ;  the strong women out there.
MsMercedes May 2014
I wish I
Could
Have made
You
Happy.
As happy as
You need to
Be to be
With Me.
MsMercedes Jun 2014
May your love
Lift me high
Let it
Bring me joy and happiness
May your love
Not tell the truth
Let it
Be perfect, even if its a perfect lie
MsMercedes May 2014
Im afraid of commitment
Im afraid of losing
Im afraid of losing you
Because I won't committee
MsMercedes May 2014
I loved you
And you loved me too
But for all the wrong
**Reasons
MsMercedes Jun 2014
I walked around
In whatever,
Shorts, mini skirts
I wasn't afraid of my scars
But only because
They didn't show
But when I was
Naked in front
Of you I
Felt ashamed
Because it was then
All my scars were
**Revealed
MsMercedes Jun 2014
She was always happy
She never complained
She always had a smile on her face
She made others around her happy
So how could you be on the phone
With Me now
Telling me she took her own life
How can you tell me
She's gone
Just yesterday she was
Laughing like there was no tomorrow
Just hours ago she was happy
Was she ?
I never asked
It never even crossed my mind
And now it's too late
Let me ask you
*Are you okay ?
MsMercedes Aug 2014
I once viewed silence
As a cruel thing
I once was scared
Of silence
Thats becuase it never
Spoke to me
Now when I sit
In my room and silence
Is all around me
It speaks
With the sound of speeding cars
Or even the sound of the breeze
It speaks to me
In ways words never could
And the loudest of them all SILENCE
MsMercedes May 2014
Society says* I'm ugly
But I say I'm beautiful
Society says I'm dumb
But I say I'm intelligent
Society says I'm fat
But I say I'm the perfect size for Me
Society says I have too many flaws
But I say they make me who I am
Society kills me
But I remain alive
*Society says but I say different
MsMercedes May 2014
To many bad days
Enormous wet stains
All because of you, let's
Restart and pretend we never
S**tarted
MsMercedes May 2014
I fake a smile and carry on with my day
No one questions me not even a bit
No one asks me if I'm alright because
They assume my smile says it all
But when they ask I say 'I'm fine' and
Move on with my day
I'm always relieved there are no follow up questions
But there are times I wish there were
There are times I wish someone cared enough
To know the real me
Not the happy girl everyone sees
No more like **the broken girl I really am
MsMercedes Dec 2013
A laugh says a lot
A smile tells a story
A frown shows emotion
A crie tells your fears
Yes they all are alike but
They are different somehow
A frown and crie show how you feel but
A smile and laugh hide your true feelings
So yes the are alike they all show something
One is just the truth and the other is a lie
MsMercedes Mar 2014
I like to stare at the sun
I like to act as if
It orbits around me
I like to stare at the clouds
I like to think they make
Shapes just for me
I like to stare at the stars
I like to prend they shine
Just for me
I like to stare at the moon
I like to act as if it
Follows me
I like to stare at the mirror
I like to pretend i see me
But its the girl i pretend to be
MsMercedes Apr 2014
There's something
About rain
That
Always makes you
Think
I love the sound/smell of rain !  9w
MsMercedes Feb 2021
Ain’t you beautiful.

Doesn’t that satisfy
Something inside of you
Seeking validation from others
What about you
Needs approval

Ain’t you beautiful?

Don’t you see complexion on magazine
Complexion faker than white ******* cover
That bought it
To be ignorant is to be in a cage
And I refuse to die in a cage
Because I went to school learning fairytales
Instead of history
**** it
I’ll teach myself.
MsMercedes Feb 2014
This room is dark
Not a single ray of sunlight shines
But every once in a while a small light appears
The light so small yet able to make things so bright
This room is dark
But there might be a chance of happiness
Some just small enough to smile
Some just large enough to laugh
This room is dark
Full of dark happiness
MsMercedes Apr 2014
Time heals
Everything but
Memories
5w     I guess time doesnt heal all things.
MsMercedes Apr 2014
Sometimes I hate living
Not because I hate my life
Sometimes I can't stand to live another day
Not because I rather die
Sometimes I wonder if I would be better off dead
Not because I want my life to end
Im just tired of living
Tired of being dead
MsMercedes Apr 2014
All she saw was
White
She was dead
8w
MsMercedes May 2014
The world is full of violence
Now I don't write this for change
I write this for myself
Let's face the truth
We rather be in gangs than
Be in a study groups
We rather laugh at others than
Stand up to one another
We rather live life in fear than
Try to make a change
We rather be slaves of our government than
Fight for equality
We rather feed the ones with food than
Feed the less fortunate
We rather educate some than
Educate all
We rather take pride in our horrible nation than
Realize we're doing something wrong
We are the violence this world
Is full of
MsMercedes Apr 2014
There
Is No
Such
Thing
As
Normal
6w        Everyone's normal is different
MsMercedes Jun 2015
I learned long ago
That we all belong somewhere.
I belong to the Hurt
To the lost
To the broken
To the depressed
To the angry
To the empty
To the hateful
To the hopeless
Who knew one day
I'd belong
To the **healed
Things get better
MsMercedes May 2014
¿Who has it worse?
As women we ;
Trust too much. Love too much.
Care too much. Cry too much
Fight too much. Get mad too much
That's just what we do.
As men you ;
Trust less. Love less
Care less. Cry less
Fight less. Get mad less
That's just what you do.
So... ¿Who has it worse?
It's hard to be women. This is dedicated to all you men who think being a girl is easy.
MsMercedes Feb 2014
Im sorry I whisper ashamed into your ear
There was power strenth and wisdom
that ran through me
Im lost and I might have giving up
I feel nothing
Everything is numb
Im stuck but maybe
Not completely hopeless
MsMercedes Mar 2014
Why cant we look at everything
As a blessing
Instead we see
How it is a curse
We look at the wrongs
Yet never the rights
A loss for us
Is a blessing for another
Why cant we be happy
Why cant we laugh at
Our failures maybe even
Laugh at our pain
Why cant we just be happy
MsMercedes May 2014
I just feel that the only way  
I can release my pain is through writing
I write my heart out in hopes
That it will bring me closure
Maybe some answers
Like why ?
Why is life so cruel to me ?
Why is it that when I lay in bed all I want to do is cry ?
Why is that I seem to mess up everything ?
Why is that everything seems to go wrong?
**Why ? Why ? Why ?
MsMercedes Jun 2014
It's amazing how something
So beautiful can be
So painful
How something
That is used to express love
Expresses hate
Maybe we should all be
Mute and Deaf
So we don't ever have to
Experience the pain words can bring
MsMercedes Dec 2013
Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me
How true is it when words are what are keeping you awake at night
How true can it be when your constanly worried about society
Why not say the truth and admit
Words cut deeper than knives themselves
Weapons **** and words do too
Thats why will live in a world full of violence
Because the simple words we say
We listen and we let the words cut deep
So why arent insults banned when guns are
Why is it that words are what make us drink those handfuls of pills
Or tie that rope to die
A gun is just a simple weapon because words can **** too
So yes sticks and stones may break my bones but words will **** me
MsMercedes May 2014
You're* so different to what I know
You're so different to what I like
You're so different to what Im used to
You're so different to what Im in love with
But You're different is *
perfect

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