It's friday.
It's pay day.
The week's over and I bring in some revnue.  
Time to use this hard earned money
to live, provide, to continue to thrive.
Also it being the weekend and me not having to work,
I can do the things I want to do now.
I can enjoy a little time to myself.

Now I can live.
Right?

Wrong.

Reality soon hits
like a glass of spilled water
on a brand new laptop computer.

The realization of
bills to be paid,
more work to be done,
is a painful one
to someone
already suffering from
a chaotic life and societal blues.
    
Mr. Paycheck comes and goes
making you wait that much longer
to get the resources needed to reach your goals.
Ms. Weekend never stays
because her time's always spent
on more work for the weekdays.

For a moment your happy because
moments anticipated come.
It's odd.
We wait for those moments of joy,
for those specific moments to live,
yet waste the majority of our lives away
in moments unwanted.  
Why do we encapsulate our happiness into moments
then wait for those moments to come around?

Sigh.
These depressing thoughts slowly fade.  
They'll probably be back; no doubt about that.
But, since the moment's arrived
in which these thoughts no longer thrive
Now, I can live...
Right?

happened among the chaos of living.

Unconsciously willingly stabbed,
slowly unknowingly bled to death.

Spirit doesn't die though
it suffers,
suffers to live again.

Your lying there, dead.
Corpse slowly rotting,
flies hover around
your mutilated flesh.

Sorry but
your life, your existence
wasn't as important
as someone getting to work on time.

Ironically
it's now that your dead
lying there
that we take the time to swerve
and not hit you.

Clouds roar, rant and rage
crying out their pain.
Fluids held within release.  
The same is true of people  

You can always tell
when rains about to fall
because of the darkness in the clouds.
Likewise you can always tell
when a person's about to cry
because of the sadness in their eyes.

Conclusions -
Whether it's tears or rain,
the manifestation of pain
results the same.

In the darkness thinking
remembering your light
always brought me peace

calmed the storm within
but, some thoughts
are just too dark

for even your light
to reach.