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m a k a y l a May 2021

in time

my soul aches to meet you
maybe in passing, a small moment of connection
my soul aches to meet you
when we are both ready, that’s when we’ll meet
all of our edges smoothed over, renewed
that’s when my soul will meet yours

#love

m a k a y l a Feb 2021

Torn

In this body, my soul screams
A cry so deeply embedded in my chest my veins run dry
Do the words exists? To describe a soul so taunted
A sick, dry, maddening feeling
A life to live, yet here I am
A screaming soul
Torn

#tired

m a k a y l a Feb 2021

so far

So far I’m trying my best
and my best *****
It ***** that my effort will never amount to much
It ***** that I am destined to live a life of mediocracy, In a world of burning passion
It ***** that my heart beat so fast, In a body of sinking spirits
So far I’m trying my best

#tired

m a k a y l a Jan 2021

Left behind

I feel that I would be the bride of adventure
That is my destiny
This feeling of being unwanted
Left behind
Abandoned
I feel that I would be the bride of adventure
That is my calling

This future that lies ahead
Empty or filled?
Bright or dull?
I feel that I would be the bride of adventure

m a k a y l a Jan 2021

Comparison

I cannot live this way
It’s no longer my body that aches for others
It’s my heart

I cannot love this way
I take the opportunity away from myself
A sabotage I can’t control
My own worst enemy
But this hate must belong to others

I cannot be this way

m a k a y l a Jan 2021

Longing

I am not owned by any earthly person
A wonderer
A life without a way
I belong to no earthly person
A misfit
A woman with no way
I am an earthly person
A door wide open
A road longing to be used

m a k a y l a Dec 2020

Desire

it's a desire of mine
to be free from freedom
to be one with everything
to be nothing at all

it's a desire of mine
to run with the wind
to sink into the earth
to stand at the foot of you

it's a desire of mine
to give in to the sun
to feel the air
to be nothing at all

#desire #wishing #hoping