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m a k a y l a Feb 2021

Torn

In this body, my soul screams
A cry so deeply embedded in my chest my veins run dry
Do the words exists? To describe a soul so taunted
A sick, dry, maddening feeling
A life to live, yet here I am
A screaming soul
Torn

#tired

m a k a y l a Feb 2021

so far

So far I’m trying my best
and my best *****
It ***** that my effort will never amount to much
It ***** that I am destined to live a life of mediocracy, In a world of burning passion
It ***** that my heart beat so fast, In a body of sinking spirits
So far I’m trying my best

#tired

m a k a y l a Jan 2021

Left behind

I feel that I would be the bride of adventure
That is my destiny
This feeling of being unwanted
Left behind
Abandoned
I feel that I would be the bride of adventure
That is my calling

This future that lies ahead
Empty or filled?
Bright or dull?
I feel that I would be the bride of adventure

m a k a y l a Jan 2021

Comparison

I cannot live this way
It’s no longer my body that aches for others
It’s my heart

I cannot love this way
I take the opportunity away from myself
A sabotage I can’t control
My own worst enemy
But this hate must belong to others

I cannot be this way

m a k a y l a Jan 2021

Longing

I am not owned by any earthly person
A wonderer
A life without a way
I belong to no earthly person
A misfit
A woman with no way
I am an earthly person
A door wide open
A road longing to be used

m a k a y l a Dec 2020

Desire

it's a desire of mine
to be free from freedom
to be one with everything
to be nothing at all

it's a desire of mine
to run with the wind
to sink into the earth
to stand at the foot of you

it's a desire of mine
to give in to the sun
to feel the air
to be nothing at all

#desire #wishing #hoping

m a k a y l a Oct 2020

Worth It

Is it worth it?
I can't find the words, ironic
The pain in my heart seeped into my blood, its everywhere
Is it worth it?