The urgency to escape,
The agony of the pain.
My eyes tired, worn out and sore,
From the countless tears I cried.

I looked around desperately,
Grabbing the only thing in sight.
Tears crawling down my face,
Deeper. Deeper. Deeper.
Redness trickled,
Stinging sensations burst.

I glare into the mirror,
Scowling at my reflection.
My eyes drawing towards the deep scar,
That seems eternally engraved into my arm.

Every girl like me dreamed to have a prince charming,
Who will treat me as his princess.

I want my prince charming to be -
Handsome,
With really cute smile;
And when I'm walking with him in the mall
Other girls couldn't stop staring at us,
Wishing they have a prince like mine.

I want someone who sings well,
He'll write songs for me
And keeps on serenading me,
Making my me blush all the time.

I'm quite a tall girl,
So he must be at least 4 inches taller than me.
So that even though I'm on my stilettos,
He would still stand tall.

But as I grew older,
I realized that my childish imagination of my prince charming has changed;
Just a decent-looking guy is enough,
I no longer care if he sings well;
I'm no longer too particular of his physical appearance
'Coz I realized
That what's inside his heart is what matters most.

Now, what I want is a sweet guy,
Who will turn ordinary days to special ones,
Keep on surprising me
Making me always happy.

I want to have someone who -
Will genuinely love me;
Is trustworthy;
Will get my family's approval and respect them;
Is a God-loving one;
Will truly care for me;
Is dependable;
Will be true to me;
Will accept me for who I am really;
Will always be there for me.

Whoever he will be,
I will love him for eternity.

You walked into my life
Leaving traces of yourself
Making sure I would never forget you
                        
How could I?
You were my rock, my anchor.
You kept me sane

I never thought that I would have to learn
To deal with the rest of the world
Without you here

You weren't my lover
We each had our own happiness
But my dear friend

Why did they steal you away from me?

Who gave them right?
Who told them it was okay?
Who granted permission for them to take you from me?
                                  
Maybe I'm selfish
You belonged to not only me
But I can't help but think

Why did you nestle yourself in my soul?
Why does it hurt so much?
Why does it feel like I lost a huge part of myself?

I needed you
I still need you
                                    
But you're not here
To smile and laugh
To cure the boredom

Chase away my demons
With your kind words
My mental sanity

Don't be afraid
I could never forget you
Like you never forgot me

define life for me
i feel i'm misunderstood
define me for life

I don't want
to be striking, I don't want to be
mesmerizing
and please do not throw “hot” at me
.
I don't want
the recognition you give
those girls, so easily
so routinely
.
.
so frequently
.
tell me your reason for this
all of it
maybe it's good
.
probably it's devastating
.
and maybe I won't question anymore
I'll stop challenging
I'll giggle and agree
(like you want)
I'll be so very much like those
remarkable girls
.