There have been times
That passed by in a blink.

In those days I felt like
They'd never end.

Now I sit alone,
Wondering if days forgotten
May still be remembered.

I know what feeling is,
But do you anymore?

Should we fight together
Or simply fall apart.

Pain hurts more
When you can't feel it.

My brain is fried
My head is all right
My heart has died
My chest is still tight
I hear the car roar,
A click, a blang,
Shot down in my front door

Dumb eyes
Heavy head
Long hair
Great undead
Here I walk
Or do I lay?
No one who's come
Has ever stayed
Am I alive?
Or are you dead?
The fear, it comes
I leave my bed

This beautiful girl will never notice me.
She's intelligent and serious, yet silly.
She will never look my way.
I scare people and am just too rude.
She will never think of me.

I desire simply to ask her out.
To go see a few sights and discuss
Something only weird pretentious people understand.
I would love to hold her hand
And hear her sweet nothings.
I would sing and write poems for you.
I would savour every word you said
Because I don't get much.

You would mean the world to me.

Love is not everything
For we need limits.
Love is left fleeting
For the sad man forgets.

With each other we fell
Apart we fell still.
In love we're not well,
And out we fall ill.

I can't even try
I don't know what truly is
I can't see what's true

Thin little line scratched into your flesh
Each with a story
Each a failed test
Fight it off
Every relapse
Fight it off
"I don't like fighting"
I don't either
But it's do or die
And please
If there's something left
Do not choose die

I see fake smiles with dry teeth
on a dead tree I'm the last leaf
cling to the cliff
or fall without fear?
The tears.
Autumn again

The more we pretend we're fixed
The more apparent it is:
We are a broken family.

Fate isn't fact
Not everything happened because it would
Fate is simply A to B
Like a road trip
In fate you go from birth to death
But you the in between is up to you
Stop anywhere you like
Look at what you want to see
Be what you want
Love who you want
Life is yours
Don't die before you can live

There's a thorn in my finger
I pull and watch the black pour out
Watch as anger takes me into stone
I stop
Frozen in place
Filled with a dark heart
I spring back to life
Leaping at the enemies that put knives into me
But as soon as I walk away
The feelings fade
No knives
No ******
Just me
Alone with a dark heart
Alone with black blood
A monster inside
A passion of mine
Escape is no option
Can't run
But I'll hide

We call ourselves weak
close my eyes
I'm at my peak
My rage has reached the top
My reign won't ever stop
I'm screaming at the ground
Burn this place down
"I hope you didn't care
Little gay looking boy
Not okay little boy
They all spit the venom in your face little boy!"
I'm rising up
Higher than the highest high
Cuz I hit my lowest low
I lost that last relapse battle
We're all stuck with our salary
Listening just to call the fallacy
Don't climb the tree
Pull lies outta me
I'm done
Lost and gone
Back to the beginning
This is how I bleed
Call the end finality

Out of breath
Empty pockets
Close to death
A fleeing rocket
Pull up the gun
And soon I **** it
You've cut too deep
You run away
You go to sleep
I hear a bang

Fogotten in mind.
Eternal in heart.

I know few words.
I'm not so bright.
I'd die by swords.
I'm not so nice.
I think I'm empty.
I cannot write.
I'm jealous of you,
While you're all right.
I'm flawed inside.
It's what I poorly say,
Yet in the end:
It's all okay.

I'll say I've seen
Something far more beautiful
But the truth is
After you flew away,
I never saw another butterfly

Light before night
My heavy conscience burdens me
I let my caged heart spread its own wings
The weight of its balance breaks the bars
But breaks itself
Heart can heal
Heart can break
I am Atlas
I am under everyone
And I am great

Even tomorrow
You will be missed

Hey, little boy
I know it's been a while
I've missed you
I realized you could've grown
You might have changed
For better or worse
I know you can't see
I wish you could be here
But things could've gotten worse
Thanks for what you said
We were young
We didn't know much
But you're still wiser then
Than me now
You told me things will get much worse
Thank you
I will be prepared
I loved you
I miss you little boy
I wish you hadn't died that day
I'll see you again
Goodbye

There was a time that man was beautiful
In that time no pain was known
But pain is real
And it killed that time
Reality sunk in
Innocence bled
Darkness within
No light to shine in

You're underrated
Misunderstood
Is it hard to be happy?
I find myself sad
I look around
"Hey, where's Dad?"
Well, the truth
He isn't an excuse
I make my own smiles
And I'll cry if I get lost

Another year older
No more years wiser
Another day colder
They put out my fire
A sinking sun
A fleeting moon
A walk then a run
But you're dead by noon

Toast to to new sorrows
In those forgotten tomorrows.
To new goodbyes
Because I couldn't say.
To not letting go
While trying to grow.
To misery and pain
Soaking in like the rain.
To a new year of the old
As I quickly grow cold.

Lift your head
Taste the sin
Break the bread
Scream again
I see your eyes
I live off dread
Call me lover
I live under your bed
I'm your own monster
I can crack your hard head
The blood it ran
We painted you red
Come now, dear lovely
There's nothing unsaid.

You make my head hurt
You make my bones ache
Say that I'm dirt
You call me a fake.
You say what I'm worth
My bones are to break.
The fire leaps from the hearth
You tremble and shake.
You turn to ash first.

Every night it gets worse
I'm crying and screaming
I am yelling
I'm trying to help myself
I can't do it alone
Please
I'm the boy that fell off his bike
Please
I know I'm ugly
I know I haven't been the same since that day
People, help me

I know I've been different
It was such a dark night
I'm sorry
I tried to stop
Please listen to me
I'm sorry
I tried
I didn't want to **** your son

Life has hurt
It is hurt
But life isn't about the pain
It's about healing

I shout her name
It's far too late
She walked away
I am alone

Age old words
Pain without love
Killings by sword
Hell from above

We lost that chance
A place to go
To live a little easier
To smile
To be a family
We never have loved
But before we get our chance
We get the same thing we've all gotten too many times
"Too late"
It's okay
I will live here in Hell
I didn't expect things to get better
I find solace in that
God has destined that we don't be happy
What a silly thing
When Hell is your home

I try to feel sorry
I try to be sad
But it's fake
I'm over it
It's gone
I don't love you
And I never will

Curious
To think of eyes
To see a dream
To believe
Growing
Curious to feel
Curious to want
Being human is strange
Being human is all
Life filled to the brim
Moment upon moment
Yet nothing new
Knowledge to understand
Answers to questions
Nothing changes
And it doesn't need to
An eternal sky
Blue or grey
Is a sky
And that's enough

The love I desire
From your sweet passion
Shall one day tire.

You may try to forget me
As I try to avoid you,
But with you is where I want to be.

Not kissing in the halls
Not fighting on the phone
Not using your body

Simply sitting there
Looking up at the sky.

The beauty runs out
The blood goes cold
They try to shout
The killer grows old
My head on the block
No way I could flee
The ax makes a chop
But the killer isn't me

A simple ticking
Born in my head
A light drum beat
Making me go mad
It calls out for me
It calls out for you
It wants something
But cannot be cured

It was an angry day
I hit the wall
Ignore my way
I jump to fall
I try to run
I try to hide
I'm blind by the sun
Enjoy the ride
Grey bars
Orange garb
Gory scars
Unhealthy heart

I do not miss a lover.
I lost a friend

I fell in love with a lover.
She fell in love with a world despite darkness.
Despite what she said.

I fell in love with a lover
That fell in love with me.

Goodbye, Natalie

A hop and a skip
A man on a trip
Everyone stays here
I say let's go
Where do we run to?
We're here at a show
Now go take a bow
The curtain is falling
Just like my tears
Life is a play
And you're a prop
You've got nothing to say

You are more beautiful
In the cold

People round here
Really don't care
They smile and laugh
Nobody will look
You have to be a certain kind of special
That's it

I was blind
When I saw you

I was amazed
When I met you

I cried
When you left me

I cry
When I still want you

If things ended better
Maybe we could say hello.

The forces of all nature
Weigh onto me heavily.
All I want is for you to
Look at me
As I look at you.
But how could you?
You are lovely
And I am me.
It's fine though.
I will be happy
When I see you again.

You say that you've run
I see there's no sweat
You got lost in the sun
I got lost under bed
We fall and we fall
Our hearts break in two
We scream and we cry
There's no more to do
The storm had come
But it still hasn't passed
It has destroyed our rose at last

How much you left behind.
The music in my ears,
The poems in my mind,
My strong faith that takes all fears.

Cry, baby, cry
She's dead in her eyes
Die, baby, die
She took her own life
The sunlight beamed
The people screamed
One simple line
Scratched in her flesh
"It was your fault"
We all caused her death

You looked and you loved
You heard and you helped
First you walked
But later you ran
You saw a monster
And you say that you're numb
You want protection from hell
But instead you found me