I wish I could stop
turn off a switch in my brain
make the feelings go away

Emotions are beautiful
until they're ripping through you
at night with clawed memories

I worry, I fear that the pain
will last longer than it should
because I want to move on from this

I wish I could have thoughts as
beautiful as the world I saw in your eyes
but I'm indifferent, I lack clarity

I wish I wasn't just another sad girl

its one of those days
where everything seems bland
and everything I do is in vain

its one of those times
where you spend too much time
thinking about lost causes

sometimes I wonder why I try
when I can't compare with the stars
and your looking for brightness

it seems like everything I do is for nothing
because no one notices my best
and my best isn't good enough for you

Sun-kiss'd skin
basked in the soft glow
of the afternoon.
The warm summer breeze
gently glides around my earth
caressing
every strand of hair
every atom
every inch of history  
every figment of reality
coursing through my body  
bound on my being
composing
decomposing  
thoughts.

Snowflakes fall softly
On my pathway of lonely
life's cold without you

I tried to draw eyes
and much to my surprise the
eyes looked at me and cried!


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