I'm in my friends car
She wants me to look at wedding dresses
We drive by your exit
I try not to cry
And now I see my battery is nearly dead
Again
But I am not dead
Not yet
And since I decided a long time ago
When I really really wanted
To die
That it would not ever be by my own hand
I have to live
I want to live
Mostly
I wish
It was different now
But it isn't
And I am no robot
Even though you think so